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I've decided that i am my least favorite fan. I find all the faults in myself and hate me for them. Just today i realized that i am socially inept. Im clumsy, poor spoken, not very bright, unnattractive, poorly dressed the majority of the time, and not approachable at all. It would be easy to say "hey man, just change." But i dont want too. Im too comfortable sitting in my room all alone thinking about how i wish things were. Thats pretty much all i have right now are my hopes that someday sometime things will be going the way id like them too. I have no direction, no money, no redeeming qualities. It's no wonder im single. It also amazes me that Jess even thought twice about me. In fact, im suprised i have any friends. Im back on a downward spiral, i wonder how far down i can go this time. Until then, im going to stick to being misanthropic. I'll waste my time in my room, using music to score my on going dreams of how i want my life to be. It's going to be a sad sad day if i ever find out that they wont be coming true. So long.