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READ ALL ABOUT IT! Yes i do have a fuckin journal. I didnt want everyone reading it really but thats what i get right? i have the choice to make this private but deep down inside i guess i do want whoever to read it. if i offend anyone...then suck my dick...cause that feels soo good.
Its been a while scince i updated. For the most part i write in this so i can reflect on my life how it is today. This past Saturday was a fuckin amazing moment in my life. Its pretty crazy how happiness makes me cry. I went through a fuckin emotional breakdown before we went on stage saturday night at St.Stephens. I was soo fuckin nervous cause i didnt want to fail in playing my best for all the poeple who came to see us. I never felt soo much fuckin pressure. We sold out of all our tee shirts unexpectedly. Just stupid little shit that was fuckin my head up. Our fanbase if noticably growing. Five minutes before i went to the stage i was outside alone fukin tearing because of excitement but at the sametime i was almost petrified as if i had never been infront of a crowd. For some reason i felt like i was going to make a fool out of myself becuase we have been locked in the studio for the past month and i forgot what it was like to let loose and jsut play a fuckin set. We all had new parts to add to songs and i thought it was all going to flop. Well as i walked on stage the curtains were closing so we can get ready and set up our shit. The closed curtains helped me concentrate and get myself together. Well i fuckin felt great after a couple of minutes. Then we were asked if we were ready to play so they can open up the curtains. When i said yes i thought i must have said it into the microphone(wich i didnt) cause all of the sudden everyone started screaming as if they knew that we were about to play...I think the lights turned off or some shit. But i fuckin felt soo hyped up. THEN THE CURTAINS OPENED....OH NO. THEN NICHO PLAYED THE RIFF TO MY SONG...OH NO. it was all soo fuckin beautiful. from the sound of his guitar to the energy coming out of the crowd...then i played my bass and fuck it sounded soo damn good. There was nothing wrong at all. I was soo fuckin extremely happy and excited...too fuckin happy...once again i scicne i was happy i felt like crying...but i cant fuckin cry infront of everyone. how fuckin gay is taht...as i sang i held it in but i could feel my voice shaking as if my whole body was about to collapse from emotional overload. Whatever i sucked it in, and we fuckin played the best show we have played yet. Every supposed true punk in miami always talks about how shitty the miami scence is...FUCK YOU FUCKIN ALLEY RATS. The miami scene is wonderful. Everyone made me soo happy cause i saw how everyone who came to the show was dancing and having a good time, and most importantly i saw how my friends were really proud of me. This is what i do, and im going to do it my best. I really wish my parents could have been there watching me...and i know they wish they could have been there as well. Im soo excited to play at Krystal this saturday. Its going to be a jampacked fun show.
Besides shows the main thing going on everyday is recording. Down on one knee is turning into a masterpiece. Its soo great seeing my favorite song we play evolve into something soo fuckin awesome. It still has a couple of more days but i can see where its going. that shits rockin grandmas house.
Theres soo much more bullshit to write but one thing that sticks out well, and its the new NFG video. I was fuckin excited to see their new video cause they are really doing great but they released the biggest piece of shit video money can buy. They had such a great opportunity to make a video with TROMA and they or their fuckin managers and video producers fucked it up. Pure lameness. The video has nothing to do with the song, and its jsut a fuckin bad bite off of my friends over you.
Ill just end on that sour note...
goodnight.
Its been a while scince i updated. For the most part i write in this so i can reflect on my life how it is today. This past Saturday was a fuckin amazing moment in my life. Its pretty crazy how happiness makes me cry. I went through a fuckin emotional breakdown before we went on stage saturday night at St.Stephens. I was soo fuckin nervous cause i didnt want to fail in playing my best for all the poeple who came to see us. I never felt soo much fuckin pressure. We sold out of all our tee shirts unexpectedly. Just stupid little shit that was fuckin my head up. Our fanbase if noticably growing. Five minutes before i went to the stage i was outside alone fukin tearing because of excitement but at the sametime i was almost petrified as if i had never been infront of a crowd. For some reason i felt like i was going to make a fool out of myself becuase we have been locked in the studio for the past month and i forgot what it was like to let loose and jsut play a fuckin set. We all had new parts to add to songs and i thought it was all going to flop. Well as i walked on stage the curtains were closing so we can get ready and set up our shit. The closed curtains helped me concentrate and get myself together. Well i fuckin felt great after a couple of minutes. Then we were asked if we were ready to play so they can open up the curtains. When i said yes i thought i must have said it into the microphone(wich i didnt) cause all of the sudden everyone started screaming as if they knew that we were about to play...I think the lights turned off or some shit. But i fuckin felt soo hyped up. THEN THE CURTAINS OPENED....OH NO. THEN NICHO PLAYED THE RIFF TO MY SONG...OH NO. it was all soo fuckin beautiful. from the sound of his guitar to the energy coming out of the crowd...then i played my bass and fuck it sounded soo damn good. There was nothing wrong at all. I was soo fuckin extremely happy and excited...too fuckin happy...once again i scicne i was happy i felt like crying...but i cant fuckin cry infront of everyone. how fuckin gay is taht...as i sang i held it in but i could feel my voice shaking as if my whole body was about to collapse from emotional overload. Whatever i sucked it in, and we fuckin played the best show we have played yet. Every supposed true punk in miami always talks about how shitty the miami scence is...FUCK YOU FUCKIN ALLEY RATS. The miami scene is wonderful. Everyone made me soo happy cause i saw how everyone who came to the show was dancing and having a good time, and most importantly i saw how my friends were really proud of me. This is what i do, and im going to do it my best. I really wish my parents could have been there watching me...and i know they wish they could have been there as well. Im soo excited to play at Krystal this saturday. Its going to be a jampacked fun show.
Besides shows the main thing going on everyday is recording. Down on one knee is turning into a masterpiece. Its soo great seeing my favorite song we play evolve into something soo fuckin awesome. It still has a couple of more days but i can see where its going. that shits rockin grandmas house.
Theres soo much more bullshit to write but one thing that sticks out well, and its the new NFG video. I was fuckin excited to see their new video cause they are really doing great but they released the biggest piece of shit video money can buy. They had such a great opportunity to make a video with TROMA and they or their fuckin managers and video producers fucked it up. Pure lameness. The video has nothing to do with the song, and its jsut a fuckin bad bite off of my friends over you.
Ill just end on that sour note...
goodnight.