Garden State of mind
I love the movie. It was my third time watching it tonight. There are some very nice philosphies. But of course, I have to be careful when saying that, because some of the philosophioes also glorify certain "activities" as being harmless, righteous, or even cool.
Nevertheless, I think life would be too fricken sad or messed up to take seriously all the time. People need to laugh, man! I mean, what can you do in those situations? You just laugh. "I'm not saying I don't cry but in between I laugh and I realize how silly it is to take anything too seriously. Plus, I look forward to a good cry. It feels pretty good." Exactly.
Ironic, Joshem and I were just talking about that in the car today. He took me to the Toyota place, but what we really accomplished was putting me $30 in dept at Fridays. It was good talks. We always joke around, but inbetween the jokes, there's some serious meat.
"... what I want more then anything in the world, is for it to be OK with you for me to feel something again, even if it's pain." Even if it's pain, I know it's ok for me to feel. I think I supress my emotions a lot when they are negative. Until I blow up. Or grow numb. I can't flippin do that. It's worse than anger or sadness. I need to let myself be a person. Especially in front of the Lord. He always has a way of knocking down my walls. Like throwing me on a faucet and forcing me to cry. HAHAHAH. I'm sorry.. that was the funniest thing that has happened to me all week.
I was romanced by the Lord last night. Scott and I took a walk across the bridge over to the big tree (SO beautiful). We had our usual talks about spirituality. My side was mostly about Jesus, but, you know...
Midnight B-ball was a blast. I was the only chick who dared to compete for the 3pnt throws. It was crazy. I got one!
Looks like I'm not getting a car anytime soon. I think I like being a mooch.
Today, "I DROPPED MY NUTS!"
I'm so tired I'm going to collapse. or go to a party. whichever.
Nevertheless, I think life would be too fricken sad or messed up to take seriously all the time. People need to laugh, man! I mean, what can you do in those situations? You just laugh. "I'm not saying I don't cry but in between I laugh and I realize how silly it is to take anything too seriously. Plus, I look forward to a good cry. It feels pretty good." Exactly.
Ironic, Joshem and I were just talking about that in the car today. He took me to the Toyota place, but what we really accomplished was putting me $30 in dept at Fridays. It was good talks. We always joke around, but inbetween the jokes, there's some serious meat.
"... what I want more then anything in the world, is for it to be OK with you for me to feel something again, even if it's pain." Even if it's pain, I know it's ok for me to feel. I think I supress my emotions a lot when they are negative. Until I blow up. Or grow numb. I can't flippin do that. It's worse than anger or sadness. I need to let myself be a person. Especially in front of the Lord. He always has a way of knocking down my walls. Like throwing me on a faucet and forcing me to cry. HAHAHAH. I'm sorry.. that was the funniest thing that has happened to me all week.
I was romanced by the Lord last night. Scott and I took a walk across the bridge over to the big tree (SO beautiful). We had our usual talks about spirituality. My side was mostly about Jesus, but, you know...
Midnight B-ball was a blast. I was the only chick who dared to compete for the 3pnt throws. It was crazy. I got one!
Looks like I'm not getting a car anytime soon. I think I like being a mooch.
Today, "I DROPPED MY NUTS!"
I'm so tired I'm going to collapse. or go to a party. whichever.