never feeling.
i have never felt this way about anything. so strongly,so deeply. yesterday i went to jimmys house. now this past week ive been busy with volleyball and such and havent gotten to see him.and to add to the problem he lost his cell phone. so it pretty much made it impossible to get ahold of him, and he was busy with football. i felt as if our relastionship was going downward. but until yesterday everything changed. we were sitting down and as i was doubting myself in my head but the usual "you arent pretty" so on and so on. i started to cry. he look at me like whats wrong and i was like nothing. so we went on just sitting there talking. and he told me i was beautiful. i started to cry more. he kept asking me what was wrong. i said nothing, its me. then he said tell me what you are thinking, and i said i've felt like this week of not being able to see you was the hardest week, i hate not seeing you, i hate not being able to be with you everyday. and then i just pulled away and sat across the room on his bed. as i sat there he came over and told me "i love you." he also said he feels like im scared of him, like he doesnt think i dont like him as much. i told him that isnt the case. i told him all my problems and my feelings and ive never felt so close to anyone. after that we were making out.and his mom walked in on us. ha. what a night. but she didnt seem to care.i was starting to feel tired so went in the living room and watched TV. we messed around with GI joes and such.and then i fell asleep in his arms. ive never liked anybody so much, ive never felt so close, so connected, i never knew he could love me so much i never knew you could care this much for one person. im so happy to have him. and i hope when you read this that you will find someone just like jimmy.
♥ jordan
♥ jordan