One by one...
So the thought has been slowly hitting me again. It's weird because I just had this spazz in like July, and it's funny because almost a year later I'm doing it again. So after ALL my guy friends left on their missions I had to kind of regroup...and it worked well for the most part. I actually gained some girl friends which is big :O for me and I've gotten really close to some of them to the point where "sisters" is a better description than just plain old "friends." Anyways..as this school year dwindles down I kinda just realized how different next year is going to be.
A few of my friends are leaving this summer for the missions. So that basically takes out EVERYONE my age from the guys. But what's worse is the massive inflation in people wanting to "escape" and leave somewhere else for school. I've got 4 friends who are leaving to go to BYU. Then one who's going to Toronto. DeeDee is moving to L.A. and so that basically leaves me with no one. I've really benefited with having a friend who is LDS live SO close to me. I never had to worry about not having anyone to hang out with and such, have a friend at church always. It just sucks so much. And it makes me so sad. I know there are going to be people left here, but they live so far away it almost doesn't matter. Especially with increasing gas prices. And I know alot of people are coming home from their missions, but once again they live so far away that it doesn't matter.
Ever since complications with Mike, I've really been trying to think of people who I could put down as possible "dates", (just in case things never work out) and I haven't come up with anything. Everyone here is either a loser or dating someone. Ok loser is a REALLY strong description, how about they are just not my type. I've really got May - the beginning of September, to sort everything out in my lie. I would leave Vancouver as well, but I don't have the money, and I don't have the grades to leave UBC. I don't want to lose my place with them because they are a really good school. Plus it's absolutly gorgeous.
With this massive lack of LDS people our age, DeeDee and I have sort of started to befriend missionaries that are here. And that is an entirely a bad thing to do. We got pretty attatched to some of the missionaries that were here, and then yesterday one of them got transfered to Campbell River and the other went back home to Cali. It was an all-around depressing day.
Man I sometimes feel like I'm going through midlife crisis' every flippin' year. "Mid year crisis" I think it's just because my 19th birthday is creeping up. I'm not even going to tell anyone about it this year. I just want it to come and go. And I've kind of gotten used to the whole "no one remembering, not even the parents" besides no one is EVER around on my birthday. Anyways...I've got an exam today. So I should be going to that now. Sorry about the self-pity post today.
I promise I'll say something one day that will be edifying lol.
A few of my friends are leaving this summer for the missions. So that basically takes out EVERYONE my age from the guys. But what's worse is the massive inflation in people wanting to "escape" and leave somewhere else for school. I've got 4 friends who are leaving to go to BYU. Then one who's going to Toronto. DeeDee is moving to L.A. and so that basically leaves me with no one. I've really benefited with having a friend who is LDS live SO close to me. I never had to worry about not having anyone to hang out with and such, have a friend at church always. It just sucks so much. And it makes me so sad. I know there are going to be people left here, but they live so far away it almost doesn't matter. Especially with increasing gas prices. And I know alot of people are coming home from their missions, but once again they live so far away that it doesn't matter.
Ever since complications with Mike, I've really been trying to think of people who I could put down as possible "dates", (just in case things never work out) and I haven't come up with anything. Everyone here is either a loser or dating someone. Ok loser is a REALLY strong description, how about they are just not my type. I've really got May - the beginning of September, to sort everything out in my lie. I would leave Vancouver as well, but I don't have the money, and I don't have the grades to leave UBC. I don't want to lose my place with them because they are a really good school. Plus it's absolutly gorgeous.
With this massive lack of LDS people our age, DeeDee and I have sort of started to befriend missionaries that are here. And that is an entirely a bad thing to do. We got pretty attatched to some of the missionaries that were here, and then yesterday one of them got transfered to Campbell River and the other went back home to Cali. It was an all-around depressing day.
Man I sometimes feel like I'm going through midlife crisis' every flippin' year. "Mid year crisis" I think it's just because my 19th birthday is creeping up. I'm not even going to tell anyone about it this year. I just want it to come and go. And I've kind of gotten used to the whole "no one remembering, not even the parents" besides no one is EVER around on my birthday. Anyways...I've got an exam today. So I should be going to that now. Sorry about the self-pity post today.
I promise I'll say something one day that will be edifying lol.