see im smiling... :)
another awesome weekend that just passed with jay! every time we see each other it just gets better and better... except the goodbyes get worse and worse... its hard to go from being with someone every single day to just like once every two weeks or so... but we're doing pretty good about it. :)
money sucks... i wish i had more time to work... and i wish i got paid more because i feel like i cant do alot of things bc my money situation is holding me back. and i dont like taking money from my parents because it makes me feel like a dependant child again and i hate that. good thing next week i am working 5 out of the 7 days... pretty much only because we're having very important visitors from all over the country and ive been working there for 2 years so i know the deal and they want me to be the best or something haha. i have to go finish up my resume inside and send it out asap to two dance studios so i can possibly get a job there. that would make me very very happy... so i gotta get cracking on that. im also going to try and do better with this whole eating/working out thing. not even because i necessarily think im fat (which i do think) but more because i want to get into better shape. i dont want to cry when i get back to dance classes next semester and i want to improve. my cousin is a chiropractor and said that if i go to him like once a week for the rest of the summer he could probably help out my shitty alignment problem. so it looks like im gonna start doing that. at this point i will try anything to fix it. not only does it hurt, but it has such a huge affect on my dancing. i also started taking voice lessons with amy again in the city. hopefully that will work out where i can see her once a week because i really miss singing. i miss theatre. im kinda lost without it.
and one more thing that i need to get cracking on is the lack of sun ive been receiving... yesterday i got to see AnneMarie and we went to the beach together! it was beautiful... except the water was cold and i actually wanted to go in this time!! oh well... i hope to be making more time for beach days with AnneMarie because this pale shit is just not going to work out for me much longer... plus these ugly tan lines probably wont work out for too much longer either. saturday morning im off to jays for the night... its not going to be a long trip but i cant see him next weekend so id rather not wait that long until i can see him next. i suppose thats all for now.. see ya lata kids <3