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Yesterday was so confusing..nothings right. and the closest thing to "right" is that i might be able to go surfing with some friends this week. but it doesn't make everything "right". i would never let a guy come between friends, and sometimes i just hoped that me and Gina were still friends. we might be, but nothing will be the same. i am happy tho bc brian's Import Tuner thing is invited to Funk Master Flex's Car Show and i can be those gurls who stand in front going "Import Tuner!! yay!" lmao, last year was fun. and last night was so overdramatical. and i hated it! but i was there for my friends. and i just wish that everything was the same! ah! i RELE RELE like Neil and i just bought up "Brandon, Neil's not here he's in GA for a softball tournament" and he goes "how do u know he's at a softball tourney? he could be out meeting/checking out other gurls for all you know." and i was thinking about that. and the worst part is that he COULD be out meeting gurls, and i can't do anything about it. and i dont want to bc that would be crazy and stupid. and im not gonna be overprotective of Neil considering I'M NOT GOING OUT WITH HIM! and whatever he does, as long as he's happy, is fine with me. if he goes out with Kristen i'm fine with it! i'm there to say "I'm so happy for yall" and if they don't i'll be happy too. but i wont be all "OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE SHES GOING OUT WITH NEIL!" if they ever go out. that would be crazy. and i saw matt yesterday at the mall and he called me this morning! and woke me up! but that's cool. haha. yea i can't go to the movies today so i might go with him some other time. I haven't talked to Brandon all today and i'm sorta glad..well not glad but like i dont want to be around all this drama! and u know what? i dont even have to do with any of it! NONE OF IT! and Ashley can go to assumption. GO GO GO! i dont care! if that makes her super happy then go! i'm not stopping her! i can't change her desicion! and the stupid thing is, it's cuz of Jeff! we only have ONE year together. and she's leaving. i'll miss her, but i dont want her to go, but if she wants then she can! AH! we have this big Rivalry and i'm SO SO SO SO SO SO SO glad me and Brandon are finally friends after that big big big fight! even tho i still like Neil it's ok! Brandon can make fun of him. wait NO HE CAN'T! and Brandon is so confused! i'm so confused! ashley is so confused! kayla is so confused! and probably Flo is confused too! oh well. haha i'm going to the MALL! and i'm happy now. so gtg i might update later.
i love neil..maybe..lol kayla. the hints!? alllriiight!
haha white chicks-sorry if i ruin it for yall!
kayla-"It's not JUST a bag it's Prada!"