Jesus! I always knew you were asian
Do you ever feel like a failure?
Insignificant?
Wrong?
Unimportant?
I'm sure you do...most people feel that way majority of the time...
I want to be beautiful
I want to be correct
I want to be bright and clever and witty
I want to be talented
Diversified
Worthy
I want people to be proud of me
I think my problem is that I am too selfish
I care too much about what I want and not enough about what other people want
Its not that I dont care about others its just that I am too self centered
I was spoiled as I child with tons of attention and affection
So I guess I just don't understand why others don't constantly give that to me
I want love
I want to fall in love and I want that person to fall in love with me too
Is that bad?
The first and only time I fell in love was...one sided to say the least
One of the most valuable experiences of my life, but awefully bitter sweet
I've been spending this year trying to find something to replace that feeling of...
emptiness
but I guess I just haven't found it yet....
maybe I should spend less time searching and more time existing
Or just appreciating the things I have
But I'm worried that the things and people I have will start to slip away from me
They did once...so I know that its possible they will again
I don't want to be in the shadows...but I will be if that's what it takes
I don't want to submit to others power hungry drive...but I will
I don't want to quit theatre but its starting to scare me big time
All these thoughts keep running through my mind
torture
I'm not gorgeous
I'm not rich
I'm not naturally agressive
I don't have tons of boys falling at my feet
And I make wrong choices quite often
I'm not that talented
I'm not that gracefull or sexy
I have horrible grades and I can't concentrate on one task for very long
I have mood swings and I get depressed
I break down
I get needy and clingy
I play games
I have spite issues
I am severly dramatic
I might push you away for someone else
I'm not clever...and I'm not very health conscious
And you can tell that I suck at spelling
I correct you when you're wrong
and I always protest that I am correct
I want to be number one in the fields I strive in
And I get pissed when you say I'm not
I hate it when I am ignored
I'm not perfect
please dont hate me
Insignificant?
Wrong?
Unimportant?
I'm sure you do...most people feel that way majority of the time...
I want to be beautiful
I want to be correct
I want to be bright and clever and witty
I want to be talented
Diversified
Worthy
I want people to be proud of me
I think my problem is that I am too selfish
I care too much about what I want and not enough about what other people want
Its not that I dont care about others its just that I am too self centered
I was spoiled as I child with tons of attention and affection
So I guess I just don't understand why others don't constantly give that to me
I want love
I want to fall in love and I want that person to fall in love with me too
Is that bad?
The first and only time I fell in love was...one sided to say the least
One of the most valuable experiences of my life, but awefully bitter sweet
I've been spending this year trying to find something to replace that feeling of...
emptiness
but I guess I just haven't found it yet....
maybe I should spend less time searching and more time existing
Or just appreciating the things I have
But I'm worried that the things and people I have will start to slip away from me
They did once...so I know that its possible they will again
I don't want to be in the shadows...but I will be if that's what it takes
I don't want to submit to others power hungry drive...but I will
I don't want to quit theatre but its starting to scare me big time
All these thoughts keep running through my mind
torture
I'm not gorgeous
I'm not rich
I'm not naturally agressive
I don't have tons of boys falling at my feet
And I make wrong choices quite often
I'm not that talented
I'm not that gracefull or sexy
I have horrible grades and I can't concentrate on one task for very long
I have mood swings and I get depressed
I break down
I get needy and clingy
I play games
I have spite issues
I am severly dramatic
I might push you away for someone else
I'm not clever...and I'm not very health conscious
And you can tell that I suck at spelling
I correct you when you're wrong
and I always protest that I am correct
I want to be number one in the fields I strive in
And I get pissed when you say I'm not
I hate it when I am ignored
I'm not perfect
please dont hate me