wow.
so things have been a whirlwind:
mom and i finally had a talk. some things sorted out. somethings i just have to accept. *sighs* i'm still very frustrated, but realized that sometimes some people can't possibly understand certain things. and it's true for me about mom as it is her about me. i need to just keep my mouth shut about my mother to others from now on. and not tell kathy what goes on because mom wants to tell her things herself. of course, i see kath every day and she always asks how my mom is doing since mom doesn't call her since she's tired blah blah blah. just going to go on and not worry too much about it.
positive happenings: mom got a full time job teaching kids at an alternative high school. small class (under 10 kids), all teens with emotional/developmental problems. mom loves it already. and she gets her town home now. woot. oh wait, should i not be posting that here? whatever, i need to talk to my friends too. *sighs*
i got to NJ on tues, the 12th of sept. here's my schedule thus far:
Thursday lunch/dinner with family
friday night- bingo!
saturday- american candle company?
sunday - shore and cousin kathy's house
monday- ?
tuesday- home around 3 pm
so yes, busy, but can still fit in if anyone else wants to do something?
i'm looking forward to good pizza, bagels, and dunkin' donuts. ::drool::
so yeah, holly has a DATE tomorrow. With a woman named Pagan, but goes by P. She's deaf. we've talked via email and IM thus far and i really like talking with her. she's doesn't read lips and i don't sign very well, so we will have pen/paper at the restaurant to communicate. she's going to teach me more sign. after dinner at Ernesto's, she'll be coming back to my place for a movie. i miss cuddling and making out. i miss women in general. i can't wait! but i'm nervous. she's much older, which makes me feel better. she's 39.
i just want to be held and loved, is that so much to ask?
and woot for me- 10 months without self injuring. nov 5th marks one year since the "incident"
weird to think i've been in oregon this long.
more later.
mom and i finally had a talk. some things sorted out. somethings i just have to accept. *sighs* i'm still very frustrated, but realized that sometimes some people can't possibly understand certain things. and it's true for me about mom as it is her about me. i need to just keep my mouth shut about my mother to others from now on. and not tell kathy what goes on because mom wants to tell her things herself. of course, i see kath every day and she always asks how my mom is doing since mom doesn't call her since she's tired blah blah blah. just going to go on and not worry too much about it.
positive happenings: mom got a full time job teaching kids at an alternative high school. small class (under 10 kids), all teens with emotional/developmental problems. mom loves it already. and she gets her town home now. woot. oh wait, should i not be posting that here? whatever, i need to talk to my friends too. *sighs*
i got to NJ on tues, the 12th of sept. here's my schedule thus far:
Thursday lunch/dinner with family
friday night- bingo!
saturday- american candle company?
sunday - shore and cousin kathy's house
monday- ?
tuesday- home around 3 pm
so yes, busy, but can still fit in if anyone else wants to do something?
i'm looking forward to good pizza, bagels, and dunkin' donuts. ::drool::
so yeah, holly has a DATE tomorrow. With a woman named Pagan, but goes by P. She's deaf. we've talked via email and IM thus far and i really like talking with her. she's doesn't read lips and i don't sign very well, so we will have pen/paper at the restaurant to communicate. she's going to teach me more sign. after dinner at Ernesto's, she'll be coming back to my place for a movie. i miss cuddling and making out. i miss women in general. i can't wait! but i'm nervous. she's much older, which makes me feel better. she's 39.
i just want to be held and loved, is that so much to ask?
and woot for me- 10 months without self injuring. nov 5th marks one year since the "incident"
weird to think i've been in oregon this long.
more later.