you know you're italian when...
... you insist on adding ingredients to jar sauce to make it taste like "real gravy." yeah.
overall bad day turned not so bad by a simple phone call. i was putting off calling momma due to emotion issues (that being the issue of me not wanting to deal with overpowering emotions). so after therapy i decided that you can't drive and cry at the same time, so it was a perfect time to give mommy a call. also, the suggestion by Manda that talking to Momma for some pre-surgery comfort sparked my need to talk to momma even more. so yeah. momma had some troubles with her ears on the plane and had to have her ear drum drained. she's doped up on pain killers and antibiotics, but is not letting this stop her from Sun Dance. and i quote, "they'll have to drag my dead body off the plane." thanks mom, really gives you that sense of security. LOL. the chat went well and she did offer me the much-needed comfort and pseudo-scolding ("you better take care of yourself and baby yourself for me! don't make me pray for you for nothing!!") that i needed. it wasn't hard for me to hang up, momma was the one upset. I gave her my own scolding about taking care of herself and i told her what she could do with that "do as i say, not as i do" bullshit. before hanging up I managaed to comfort a crying casey, who was being teased by brighid. apparently saying "holly says you're wrong!" works well at shutting up the teaser. i guess it wouldn't work as well if i was the teased, though. though, speaking in third person does scare some of the new staff who aren't used to my ways (calling them "procreators" and "over-populators" also scares them, don't know why...).
can i just say i'm a friggin' genious?? i'm making multo amounts of pasta in order to be able to freeze the extra, thus making INSTA LUNCHES for camp!! haha, rock on. no re-heating necessary, i like cold macaroni and sauce.
yeah,so.. with the last post i forgot to mention that the weening off of trileptal is sort of redundant, since i've already stopped taking most of my meds (except wellbutrin, which i think may actually be doing something...). you can hissy-fit all you want (we know i certainly have enough at friends who randomly stopped taking their meds), but from the time i was 15 and started meds until about 18 i took my meds religiously. granted, in senior year i did have a spurt of not taking them, but before that, when i was in the worst crises i didn't. and while at the dorm my meds regime was less than perfect, but pretty damn close to it, since chica and i helped each other (for her the breakfast of champions was birthcontrol and for me neurontin). so for all of you that i have said something to becuase you randomly stopped your meds all at once, i appologize only if you were as sure of it as i am. i feel great and have noticed some positive changes. no one can be 100% sure that the changes are completely due to my lack of meds, but the connection seems pretty acurate.
overall bad day turned not so bad by a simple phone call. i was putting off calling momma due to emotion issues (that being the issue of me not wanting to deal with overpowering emotions). so after therapy i decided that you can't drive and cry at the same time, so it was a perfect time to give mommy a call. also, the suggestion by Manda that talking to Momma for some pre-surgery comfort sparked my need to talk to momma even more. so yeah. momma had some troubles with her ears on the plane and had to have her ear drum drained. she's doped up on pain killers and antibiotics, but is not letting this stop her from Sun Dance. and i quote, "they'll have to drag my dead body off the plane." thanks mom, really gives you that sense of security. LOL. the chat went well and she did offer me the much-needed comfort and pseudo-scolding ("you better take care of yourself and baby yourself for me! don't make me pray for you for nothing!!") that i needed. it wasn't hard for me to hang up, momma was the one upset. I gave her my own scolding about taking care of herself and i told her what she could do with that "do as i say, not as i do" bullshit. before hanging up I managaed to comfort a crying casey, who was being teased by brighid. apparently saying "holly says you're wrong!" works well at shutting up the teaser. i guess it wouldn't work as well if i was the teased, though. though, speaking in third person does scare some of the new staff who aren't used to my ways (calling them "procreators" and "over-populators" also scares them, don't know why...).
can i just say i'm a friggin' genious?? i'm making multo amounts of pasta in order to be able to freeze the extra, thus making INSTA LUNCHES for camp!! haha, rock on. no re-heating necessary, i like cold macaroni and sauce.
yeah,so.. with the last post i forgot to mention that the weening off of trileptal is sort of redundant, since i've already stopped taking most of my meds (except wellbutrin, which i think may actually be doing something...). you can hissy-fit all you want (we know i certainly have enough at friends who randomly stopped taking their meds), but from the time i was 15 and started meds until about 18 i took my meds religiously. granted, in senior year i did have a spurt of not taking them, but before that, when i was in the worst crises i didn't. and while at the dorm my meds regime was less than perfect, but pretty damn close to it, since chica and i helped each other (for her the breakfast of champions was birthcontrol and for me neurontin). so for all of you that i have said something to becuase you randomly stopped your meds all at once, i appologize only if you were as sure of it as i am. i feel great and have noticed some positive changes. no one can be 100% sure that the changes are completely due to my lack of meds, but the connection seems pretty acurate.