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The Bright Eyes' video for "First Day of My Life" really makes me want to kill myself, and now that I found out it's on OnDemand, I watch it almost daily. Sometimes a few times a day. This can't be good.
I'm now coming into the homestretch of rehearsal for Red, Hot & Cole, so my life has basically ceased to exist. Having rehearsals every night and for the majority of Saturday and Sunday is making my spirit go away. Depression comes a lot easier when you're lonely. I love my cast members, but there's something to be said for just sitting on your ass with friends. I feel like I haven't done much of that lately.
I miss Penny. A lot. I miss sitting on her porch drinking beer and laughing. I miss hearing her laugh. I just plain miss her. I've started seriously contemplating moving to Atlanta just to be able to see her regularly again. On the other hand, it seems more and more imminent as I get older that I'll never leave Jacksonville and do all the fabulous things I had planned for my life.
This post just turned extremely depressing, so I'm gonna stop now. I'm not trying to get any sympathy, I just started writing and this post is what came out.
I'm now coming into the homestretch of rehearsal for Red, Hot & Cole, so my life has basically ceased to exist. Having rehearsals every night and for the majority of Saturday and Sunday is making my spirit go away. Depression comes a lot easier when you're lonely. I love my cast members, but there's something to be said for just sitting on your ass with friends. I feel like I haven't done much of that lately.
I miss Penny. A lot. I miss sitting on her porch drinking beer and laughing. I miss hearing her laugh. I just plain miss her. I've started seriously contemplating moving to Atlanta just to be able to see her regularly again. On the other hand, it seems more and more imminent as I get older that I'll never leave Jacksonville and do all the fabulous things I had planned for my life.
This post just turned extremely depressing, so I'm gonna stop now. I'm not trying to get any sympathy, I just started writing and this post is what came out.