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Wow so its so unlike me not to post in like for days. Wednesday was weird to be in class! I had composition, I think im going to like that class, I had to email my prof an autobiography which I think I did really well on. I got signed into all my classes besides prof cramer for psychology I have to do that on Wednesday and pay an extra $5 for late sign-in. I've been trying to read my textbooks and its really hard to get back into that school mode. On Thursday, work was really dead, so I started reading a little but since then I cant seem to get back into it! Everytime I try to read I end up falling asleep. Wednesday was fun, Dana, Mark and Eric all went to Sevin it was kinda boring at first but towards the end it got fun. Friday I had to get blood work done and went to school to get some things fixed. My dosage for meds were increased and i've been feeling really sick lately. I cant really explain how I feel besides the fact that everything around me doesnt seem real, it seems like im always in a dream world and i've been having a really hard time remembering things. I broke down at work crying yesterday because I hate the way the meds make me feel and if I stop taking them I start to shake and I become even more emotional. I hate that I have to take meds to find happiness, its honestly just bullshit to me! I struggled alot writing my autobiography because my brain doesnt think like it use too and i've lost alot of my creativity but it was still good because I used alot of my old work for references. I have to write an essay on media and society and I cant think of a good topic. Anyways, I went to a party in Clarkston Friday night. I left Canada at 930, it was raining alot! I was going 55miles 80kms the whole way there and cars were passing me like crazy. I get nervous driving when it rains. The party was fun haha I brought my textbook because I wanted to catch up to some reading so Dana and Marcus both drunk tried reading to me. I drank mountain dew again and felt really messed up I honestly dont know what it is with me and that damn drink! We ended up leaving at 3:30 and the roads were horrible I started to cry after I lost control of the wheel for a few seconds. It took us an hour to get back to Waterford which is normally 20 minutes away. Dana offered that I stay in her spare bedroom which I did. I slept with one of there dogs its the cutest thing ever. Its like the dog from the little mermaid its huge!! I woke up around 9, talked to Dana's mom for a little and drove home. The roads were fine, thank God!! I went back to bed then had to do Angela's makeup then went to work. Work sucked so bad, I have 2 shifts next week and I made $50 last night. I felt so sick, I was so dizzy, my manager was getting upset with me because I seemed to have been doing everything wrong. I had to plunge a toilet in the males washroom because it was covered in shit and toilet paper I wanted to throw up it was sick! It wouldnt go down, so I had to get one of the cooks to help me! He did it in the first try, nasty. Anyways I went to bed last night at 11 and woke up this morning at 11:30. Im about to spend the rest of the day and night studying.