why me?
WELL TOMORROW IS THANKSGIVING AND I KINDA WISH I WAS IN FLORIDA BUT IM NOT BUT IT WILL BE OK.. MY LIFE IS GETTING BETTER AND BETTER BY THE DAY. IM TRING TO MAKE THINGS WORK FOR ME AND DANNY BUT HE LIKES HANNGING OUT AT NIGHT AND I MOSTLY WORK DAY SO BY NIGHT TIME I AM TIRED AS HELL, BUT IM GONNA TRY TO MAKE IT WORK AS MUCH AS I CAN. CAUSE I REALLY DO LIKE HIM AND HE REALLY NICE.BUT THEN THERE IS FOLA BUT THERE IS A REASON I WOULDNT DATE HIM, BUT IM NOT GONNA SAY WHY, BUT FOLA IS REALLY NICE TO ME TO.. BUT I GUESS I WILL JUST HAVE TO WAIT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS. DANNY AND FOLA ARE SUPPOSE TO BE COMING OVER TONIGHT TO BRING MY BROTHER HOME CAUSE MY BROTHER WENT TO THE STUDIO WITH THEM TO RECORD..SO MAYBE I WILL TALK TO DANNY FOR A FEW MINUTES TONIGHT AND IM DRINKING TO SO WE WILL JUST HAVE TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THEY GET HERE, BUT I DONT WANNA LOOK STUPID SO IF I FEEL TO DRUNK I WONT GO OUT THERE AND TALK TO THEM..
RAQUEL HAS BEEN A GREAT FRIEND TO ME LATELY SHE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEED HER, AND IM GLAD I HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK TO IF I HAVE PROBLEMS.. DIANA ON THE OTHER HAND IS ABOUT PISSING ME OFF SHE IS PLAYING GAMES WITH MARK AND DANIEL AND MARK AND DANIEL ARE BOTH MY FRIENDS SO THAT SHIT IS PISSING ME OFF, SHE TELLS US SHE DONT LIKE DANIEL AND SHE TELLS DANIEL SHE DONT LIKE MARK SO I DONT KNOW WHATS GOING ON... DANIEL TOLD ME TONIGHT HE REALLY LIKES HER AND I WAS LIKE WELL SHE LIKES MARK AND HES LIKE NOT FROM WHAT I HEAR SO ITS LIKE SHE IS PLAYING GAMES WITH BOTH OF THEM.. AND I HATE PPL WHO PLAY GAME WEATHER SHE IS MY COUSIN OR NOT THEY ARE MY FRIENDS AND I AM CLOSER TO MARK THEN I AM WITH HER AND DANIEL, EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE OUR DIFFERENCES I STILL THINK IM CLOSER TO HIM THEN I AM WITH HER..SHE JUST NEEDS TO STOP PLAYING GAMES..
MY AUNT CALLED ME THE OTHER NIGHT, AND I GOT TO TALK TO THE BABY I WAS SO HAPPY THAT IS ONE OF THE THINGS I MISS ABOUT FLORIDA IS JOEY.. I WAS SO CLOSE WITH JOEY, AND I FEEL BAD CAUSE HE IS NOT GETTING HIS MONEY FROM HIS DAD WHCIH HE SHOULD BE GETTING $200 A WEEK AND HE GETS NOTHING AND ITS NOT FAIR CAUSE HE IS JUST A BABY..
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT MARK ITS LIKE I TRY TO GET OVER HIM BUT NO MATTER WHAT I ALWAYS TALK TO HIM STILL AND I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM AND I CARE ABOUT HIM ALOT AND I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. MARK IS A GREAT FRIEND TO ME, UNLESS HE IS DRUNK AND THEN HE IS AN ASSHOLE, BUT ITS OK CAUSE I STILL LOVE HIM...I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO TO GET OVER HIM. I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING.. BUT I GUESS I WILL JUST HAVE TO GIVE UP..
ANOTHER PROBLEM IM HAVING IS IM STARTING TO MISS DAVID NOW.. ITS BEEN ALMOST 2 YEARS SINCE WE BROKE UP AND I STILL THINK ABOUT HIM ALOT. NOT AS MUCH AS I THINK ABOUT MARK, BUT I THINK ABOUT HIM ENOUGH..AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO STOP THAT EITHER I MEAN I HAVENT LOOKED AT HIS PICTURES IN MONTHS, I HAVENT TALKED TO HIS MOM IN WEEKS. HE JUST ON MY MIND ALOT LATELY MAYBE CAUSE OF THE HOLIDAYS COMING IM NOT SURE WHY..BUT SHIT IF HE WAS TO CALL ME OUT OF THE BLUE I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD SAY TO HIM.. I GUESS I WOULD ASK HIM HOW HIS BABY IS DOING AND HOW HE IS DOING CONSIDERING I HAVENT SPOKEN TO HIM SINCE FEBUARY, ITS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR, AND NEXT WEEK IS HIS BIRTHDAY AND I WISH I COULD TALK T0 HIM FOR HIS BIRTHDAY BUT I KNOW I CANT SO I WILL JUST CALL HIS MOM AND TELL HER TO TELL HIM I SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY..
WELL IM JUST RAMBLING ON TONIGHT. I HAVE ALOT TO SAY FOR SOME REASON.. PROBALLY CAUSE IM DRINKING BUT IM GONNA GET GOING.. XOXOXO HEATHER <3 XOXOXO
RAQUEL HAS BEEN A GREAT FRIEND TO ME LATELY SHE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEED HER, AND IM GLAD I HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK TO IF I HAVE PROBLEMS.. DIANA ON THE OTHER HAND IS ABOUT PISSING ME OFF SHE IS PLAYING GAMES WITH MARK AND DANIEL AND MARK AND DANIEL ARE BOTH MY FRIENDS SO THAT SHIT IS PISSING ME OFF, SHE TELLS US SHE DONT LIKE DANIEL AND SHE TELLS DANIEL SHE DONT LIKE MARK SO I DONT KNOW WHATS GOING ON... DANIEL TOLD ME TONIGHT HE REALLY LIKES HER AND I WAS LIKE WELL SHE LIKES MARK AND HES LIKE NOT FROM WHAT I HEAR SO ITS LIKE SHE IS PLAYING GAMES WITH BOTH OF THEM.. AND I HATE PPL WHO PLAY GAME WEATHER SHE IS MY COUSIN OR NOT THEY ARE MY FRIENDS AND I AM CLOSER TO MARK THEN I AM WITH HER AND DANIEL, EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE OUR DIFFERENCES I STILL THINK IM CLOSER TO HIM THEN I AM WITH HER..SHE JUST NEEDS TO STOP PLAYING GAMES..
MY AUNT CALLED ME THE OTHER NIGHT, AND I GOT TO TALK TO THE BABY I WAS SO HAPPY THAT IS ONE OF THE THINGS I MISS ABOUT FLORIDA IS JOEY.. I WAS SO CLOSE WITH JOEY, AND I FEEL BAD CAUSE HE IS NOT GETTING HIS MONEY FROM HIS DAD WHCIH HE SHOULD BE GETTING $200 A WEEK AND HE GETS NOTHING AND ITS NOT FAIR CAUSE HE IS JUST A BABY..
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT MARK ITS LIKE I TRY TO GET OVER HIM BUT NO MATTER WHAT I ALWAYS TALK TO HIM STILL AND I STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM AND I CARE ABOUT HIM ALOT AND I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. MARK IS A GREAT FRIEND TO ME, UNLESS HE IS DRUNK AND THEN HE IS AN ASSHOLE, BUT ITS OK CAUSE I STILL LOVE HIM...I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO TO GET OVER HIM. I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING.. BUT I GUESS I WILL JUST HAVE TO GIVE UP..
ANOTHER PROBLEM IM HAVING IS IM STARTING TO MISS DAVID NOW.. ITS BEEN ALMOST 2 YEARS SINCE WE BROKE UP AND I STILL THINK ABOUT HIM ALOT. NOT AS MUCH AS I THINK ABOUT MARK, BUT I THINK ABOUT HIM ENOUGH..AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO STOP THAT EITHER I MEAN I HAVENT LOOKED AT HIS PICTURES IN MONTHS, I HAVENT TALKED TO HIS MOM IN WEEKS. HE JUST ON MY MIND ALOT LATELY MAYBE CAUSE OF THE HOLIDAYS COMING IM NOT SURE WHY..BUT SHIT IF HE WAS TO CALL ME OUT OF THE BLUE I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD SAY TO HIM.. I GUESS I WOULD ASK HIM HOW HIS BABY IS DOING AND HOW HE IS DOING CONSIDERING I HAVENT SPOKEN TO HIM SINCE FEBUARY, ITS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR, AND NEXT WEEK IS HIS BIRTHDAY AND I WISH I COULD TALK T0 HIM FOR HIS BIRTHDAY BUT I KNOW I CANT SO I WILL JUST CALL HIS MOM AND TELL HER TO TELL HIM I SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY..
WELL IM JUST RAMBLING ON TONIGHT. I HAVE ALOT TO SAY FOR SOME REASON.. PROBALLY CAUSE IM DRINKING BUT IM GONNA GET GOING.. XOXOXO HEATHER <3 XOXOXO