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Here lately it seems like Raquel has been a better friend to me then anyone one else has been. she is my best friend at this point, she is like my family which is kinda weird considering we have never met we have only talked on the phone and online, but she is the person who is there for me when i need someone the most. she is a really great friend even though she gets mad at me when i talk about mark all the time but its ok we are even she talks about Jay all the time.. I finally got to talk to danny today first time since sunday, and he was like"i dont know what we are, or what you want us to be" i dont even know this how am i suppose to give him an answer, i really dont know what i want right now, i am totally confused. i mean i like danny alot but then there is dick head and the whole situation is fucked up. like the whole new years eve thing, mark is coming up here to hang with us on new years eve but i dont wanna ditch him to hang with danny cause we have had these plans since july but i dont wanna screw things up with danny by telling him i have plans with another guy, and i would invite danny but i dont want him getting all mad if i dance with mark, which i know i will. so i just dont know what to do. My best friend Raquel seems to think i shouldnt ruin something with someone who might actually care about me for an asshole who lives 1000 miles away and doesnt care about me.. but mark is like a good friend to me(when he wants to be) im just confused about everything i guess i just have to wait to see what happens with danny first, and if it means breaking plans with my best guy friend to make my guy happy, i dont know.. danny should understand that me and mark are JUST FRIENDS and we have been friends for 4 years and he is coming up here to hang out with me and im not gonna ditch him..and then if he gets mad the fuck it, thats no kind of relationship ifhe cant trust me to hang out with one of my best friends that just happens to be a guy. and if you cant have trust there is nothing to a relationship..but im gonna close for now.. got things to do.