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Well guys,
I know i said I had a perfect life an nothing could make it any better but that was a load of shit. Everything else has worked out in my life so far my rent is payed the cop just wanted to know if I had seen anyone stealin from these peoples house next to me. Now that I have all that behind me the one other thing that was stressin me out is the one thing I wish more than anything else in the world i could fix.But when your boyfriend leaves you to go back to england an tells you he'll only be gone a month then turns to 2 then to January and tells you theres no point in dating anymore an that he wants to sleep with other people or might an doesnt know if he really loves you cause he hasnt seen you in 3 weeks you just cant help but wonder when is it my turn to find someone special. I just dont know how much more of this crap i can take. I did love him he just didnt feel the same. It's just not fair I had it everything I could ever want for 3 weeks I had it all an by some sick twisted sense of humor got all of it ripped away from me. I just dont know how to believe in anything any more. I am just unlovable that's it, no one will ever be able to love me I guess. i will just learn to deal with it being alone that is. EVeryone else if you have someone you wake up to every morning an cuddle with an kiss goodnight treasure it and dont let it go. Appreciate it for what it is. And let them know you appreciate them. Thats all of it them rambilings of a lonely sad hearthbroken bitter woman.
I know i said I had a perfect life an nothing could make it any better but that was a load of shit. Everything else has worked out in my life so far my rent is payed the cop just wanted to know if I had seen anyone stealin from these peoples house next to me. Now that I have all that behind me the one other thing that was stressin me out is the one thing I wish more than anything else in the world i could fix.But when your boyfriend leaves you to go back to england an tells you he'll only be gone a month then turns to 2 then to January and tells you theres no point in dating anymore an that he wants to sleep with other people or might an doesnt know if he really loves you cause he hasnt seen you in 3 weeks you just cant help but wonder when is it my turn to find someone special. I just dont know how much more of this crap i can take. I did love him he just didnt feel the same. It's just not fair I had it everything I could ever want for 3 weeks I had it all an by some sick twisted sense of humor got all of it ripped away from me. I just dont know how to believe in anything any more. I am just unlovable that's it, no one will ever be able to love me I guess. i will just learn to deal with it being alone that is. EVeryone else if you have someone you wake up to every morning an cuddle with an kiss goodnight treasure it and dont let it go. Appreciate it for what it is. And let them know you appreciate them. Thats all of it them rambilings of a lonely sad hearthbroken bitter woman.