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You know what I don't understand?? HOw can I go from having the best day of my ENTIRE life 2 days ago-- to the absolute WORST day EVER today?
well, I guess ti started last night- but I don't want to get into it right now-
basically- I don't get how someone that barely knows me can make me float on top of the clouds and someone who knows everything about me can shoot me out of the coulds and make me feel like a worthless piece of crap that doesn't deserve happiness-- even though it's "forbidden" whatever- forbidden forschmidden--- you'd think your friends would be supportive of every decision you made- and would be happy if you're happy- I mean, that's what I like to think that I do..i may not agree with all of my friends choices.. however- I support them regardless- cuz they can do what they want---so I don't make them feel like crap about it- oh wait- didn't I say I didn't want to get into it??
moving on--so this morning I went to the doc- that went fine- considering I missed my appt yesterday- i fell so bad about it- but I really thought it was for today--at least that went well- so I can still donate my eggs- and get money and do good--and help a family have a baby that they've always wanted- hmmm- you'd think Kharma was more on my side cuz of that-- but NO!!
so then anyway- I called my best friend Kimmy- cuz i needed to vent- and that went well--
then I drove to my job to check my schedule- that they said I was gonna be on for next wed--
and gee- I'm not on it- so apparently I no longer have a job- but nobody wanted to tell me-- imagine that- now I really might have to move back- although I really don't want to- but there's no way I can afford to stay here alone- and i can't stay where I'm at- and I really don't think I should have a roommate- at least not now-
at least there I could get a job in a snap- I know enough people- and have worked everywhere-- so it would totally wotrk out-- at least for a couple of years or so---
then I had to call my dad and beg him for a loan-
i also might have to drop out of my other show that I"m doing right now- cuz if I move back it will have to be soon-- so I can start another job quick- so I can get some $$--unless my dad gives me enough- like a grand- that can get me through the rest of the month- with all my appts- and all that jazz---
oh yeah and to top it off-- it's FREEZING!!!!
blah blah blah-- so needless to say I HATE TODAY!!
Nick and Danielle are coming in tonight- although we have to find somewhere else to stay---moving on...
maybe that will cheer me up some---
anyway- i'm gonna go- got much to think about----
blah---
well, I guess ti started last night- but I don't want to get into it right now-
basically- I don't get how someone that barely knows me can make me float on top of the clouds and someone who knows everything about me can shoot me out of the coulds and make me feel like a worthless piece of crap that doesn't deserve happiness-- even though it's "forbidden" whatever- forbidden forschmidden--- you'd think your friends would be supportive of every decision you made- and would be happy if you're happy- I mean, that's what I like to think that I do..i may not agree with all of my friends choices.. however- I support them regardless- cuz they can do what they want---so I don't make them feel like crap about it- oh wait- didn't I say I didn't want to get into it??
moving on--so this morning I went to the doc- that went fine- considering I missed my appt yesterday- i fell so bad about it- but I really thought it was for today--at least that went well- so I can still donate my eggs- and get money and do good--and help a family have a baby that they've always wanted- hmmm- you'd think Kharma was more on my side cuz of that-- but NO!!
so then anyway- I called my best friend Kimmy- cuz i needed to vent- and that went well--
then I drove to my job to check my schedule- that they said I was gonna be on for next wed--
and gee- I'm not on it- so apparently I no longer have a job- but nobody wanted to tell me-- imagine that- now I really might have to move back- although I really don't want to- but there's no way I can afford to stay here alone- and i can't stay where I'm at- and I really don't think I should have a roommate- at least not now-
at least there I could get a job in a snap- I know enough people- and have worked everywhere-- so it would totally wotrk out-- at least for a couple of years or so---
then I had to call my dad and beg him for a loan-
i also might have to drop out of my other show that I"m doing right now- cuz if I move back it will have to be soon-- so I can start another job quick- so I can get some $$--unless my dad gives me enough- like a grand- that can get me through the rest of the month- with all my appts- and all that jazz---
oh yeah and to top it off-- it's FREEZING!!!!
blah blah blah-- so needless to say I HATE TODAY!!
Nick and Danielle are coming in tonight- although we have to find somewhere else to stay---moving on...
maybe that will cheer me up some---
anyway- i'm gonna go- got much to think about----
blah---