Nomadic in a stationary setting

Sep 03, 2005 22:27

I saw you today. And after I couldn't stop the tears. I had held them in so long being angry. I didn't want to give them to you. I didn't want you or let myself think you were worth any...but you are. I thought a long time about the past, again for the first time since I last talked to you. I remember everything. Every detail...does that mean something? Because I can't help but think it does. I looked you in your eyes on accident and all I could feel was pain. From both of us. I wanted to reach out and hug you. I wanted you to hold me like you used to. But I didn't. I didn't even watch you leave like I always used to. I hate that you did this to us. How could you? I told you not to even start! Did you think I was kidding? That I was stupid? That I was to unexperienced to know what I was talking about? Well I wasn't. I knew it you bastard.

Billy and John are home. I saw Billy today. I missed him so much. Should see John later. Hopefully that bitch.

I left all my stuff at the gray. Really sucks. Stupid bombs.

I think my grades are bad by now. Not good. I hate pre-cal, and U.S. history. OMG I HATE US HISTORY!

Might get a job at mr.gattis as a party hero. It's convenient. Fuck Chick-fil-a. Try to fire me...well i don't need ya! AND YOU SALTED YOUR FIRES TOO MUCH ON OCCASION! So there.

Wake me up when September ends...
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