Bad move
Wow. Billy is actually gone. Hung out with him yesterday. It was a good day. But I didn't get to say goodbye properly since I thought I would see him later on. I can't believe he did that. I needed closure. That really upset me. He said he would see me later that day and never came. Really hurts. Right now I still don't really believe he is gone. It was a terrible thing to do.
PP called from Texas State today. She was actually at Texas State. Taking classes. Freakin scary. Saw box yesterday, and leaving work early to see him again tonight. It is coming to an end. It really is. God this hurts. I can't believe this. I don't know how to live my life with out you guys. I'm so scared of you not being a car ride away. I can't see you in 5 minutes anymore. I can't hug you when i'm sad. Your shoulder won't be there for me to cry on. I can't share an ecstatic amazing day of practice with a huge hug and lots of laughing. I can't look at your smile and automatically feel at ease; like everything will be ok. This is love. I can't believe it's being torn way from me. No more late nights at Borders, driving your car in a random parking lot, almost dying from your own moronic driving techniques, sitting on my roof, laying in my driveway, sitting in the front of my house, sneakin out, random knocking at my window, random visits that brightened my day, fruit cups, parties with you guys, and i'm already sobbing so I have to stop.
Red eye was ok. Cillian Murphy amazing in every way.
Richie and me need to hang out.
PP called from Texas State today. She was actually at Texas State. Taking classes. Freakin scary. Saw box yesterday, and leaving work early to see him again tonight. It is coming to an end. It really is. God this hurts. I can't believe this. I don't know how to live my life with out you guys. I'm so scared of you not being a car ride away. I can't see you in 5 minutes anymore. I can't hug you when i'm sad. Your shoulder won't be there for me to cry on. I can't share an ecstatic amazing day of practice with a huge hug and lots of laughing. I can't look at your smile and automatically feel at ease; like everything will be ok. This is love. I can't believe it's being torn way from me. No more late nights at Borders, driving your car in a random parking lot, almost dying from your own moronic driving techniques, sitting on my roof, laying in my driveway, sitting in the front of my house, sneakin out, random knocking at my window, random visits that brightened my day, fruit cups, parties with you guys, and i'm already sobbing so I have to stop.
Red eye was ok. Cillian Murphy amazing in every way.
Richie and me need to hang out.