see i'm crying
"i swear to god i'll never understand how you can stand there straight and tall and see i'm crying and not do anything at all"
ok so it's time for another one of jen's few and far between entries! yay! i'm so mood swingy it really really sucks. i'm really happy for like 2 seconds and then everything is suddenly overwhelmingly depressing. like pa, i wait for it all day long because in my head it's a happy wonderful place and then i get there and all the drama hits and i just want to cry. plus liz has been sick all week and i miss her a lot! then there was yesterday... national day of silence. and i had the revalation that no one at gahanna really noticed or cared that i wasn't speaking. and on top of that the big will and grace party that we've been planning since november looks like it's going to be me, matt, and elaine. what an exciting party! i feel as though, yet again, my "friends" are all sick of me and beginning to abandon me. you know, you would think that this being the third time (not including people going to college) i would be used to it, but saddly no, i still expect my friends to be faithful after all this time. i really live in a pretty delusioned world where your friends actually care about you and want to spend time with you, people can be kind and accepting, and people actually listen to you when you talk to them.
ok so it's time for another one of jen's few and far between entries! yay! i'm so mood swingy it really really sucks. i'm really happy for like 2 seconds and then everything is suddenly overwhelmingly depressing. like pa, i wait for it all day long because in my head it's a happy wonderful place and then i get there and all the drama hits and i just want to cry. plus liz has been sick all week and i miss her a lot! then there was yesterday... national day of silence. and i had the revalation that no one at gahanna really noticed or cared that i wasn't speaking. and on top of that the big will and grace party that we've been planning since november looks like it's going to be me, matt, and elaine. what an exciting party! i feel as though, yet again, my "friends" are all sick of me and beginning to abandon me. you know, you would think that this being the third time (not including people going to college) i would be used to it, but saddly no, i still expect my friends to be faithful after all this time. i really live in a pretty delusioned world where your friends actually care about you and want to spend time with you, people can be kind and accepting, and people actually listen to you when you talk to them.