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it has always been really hard to admit to myself that someone cares about me...im not exactly sure why...maybe because im afraid that if someone cares too much about me, the easier it is for me to hurt them. i dont know. i think this may be why i have never had really good friends. but in the past semester i have realized that some people really do care about me, and it feels really good. i have never had a friend as good as tracy or nevan. and even though nevan doesnt admit it, i know he cares. as for you tracy...you are my best friend here. probably my best friend ever. you have done so much for me, and i have been trying to figure out a good way to tell you how much i appreciate your friendship and nothing i think of feels like it would get my message across. i dont know...i guess all i am trying to say is thank you, and i love you. (in a non-sexual way of course)