memories
Feb. 6th, 2004 - This was the first entry of my live journal which proceeded to fill up most of my time for the next two years. it is scary to see how much of my life is written in these pages. the countless times i mention theater and drama and the many spelling mistakes that i still have no overcome. My last entry was on graduation. I never realized how much fontbonne shaped me.. really! for four years i walked the halls never knowing what kind of impact i had on people and more importantly the impact they had on me. looking back i would change very few things. fights with friends, being jealous and just being a mess all lead to that knot that i felt in my stomach for almost 3 years at that place. It was my home. and as i go back now it doesn't feel like it at all. i walk down the hall to greet teachers that aren't there anymore. i sit in the audience of countless shows that i used to be apart of. Now i will be lucky if i recognize more than 5 people participating in them. i feel like fba was my temporary home to grow and to live in the moment only for a little while. it has been two years since i graduated but i can still remember almost all of my experiences both good and bad there. I can remember the teachers who will always be in my heart for helping me get through four years of hell. I will remember being in 118 and just knowing i may get frostbite because the heat isn't working. I will remember staying through for rehearsal and eating salad and mashed potatoes. I will remember how the only reason i stuck around was the drama club.
so many thing happened in those four years it would take me forever to recount all of them. But the one thing i will always have is the friends that i have made. i have just now realized how no matter how far apart we grow we will always have someone to turn to. i learned this many time during this past year. the one thing that i will thank fba for is that it helped me make amazing friendships and no matter how many teachers they fire or budgets they cut they will not take them away from me.
i fell like i have been ranting and i apologize. I just feel like a lot has changed and i feel helpless to stop it. sometimes i really do miss that place. but when i go back i like to have that feeling that i can always leave.. i will be out in about two hours.. and that is enough time for me.
so many thing happened in those four years it would take me forever to recount all of them. But the one thing i will always have is the friends that i have made. i have just now realized how no matter how far apart we grow we will always have someone to turn to. i learned this many time during this past year. the one thing that i will thank fba for is that it helped me make amazing friendships and no matter how many teachers they fire or budgets they cut they will not take them away from me.
i fell like i have been ranting and i apologize. I just feel like a lot has changed and i feel helpless to stop it. sometimes i really do miss that place. but when i go back i like to have that feeling that i can always leave.. i will be out in about two hours.. and that is enough time for me.