oh goodie- it's back!!!!!

[dramanut0410]

i feel so stupid.
 is it back to square one for me?
one conversation with someone, and what it is,has come back
i can already tell that tomorrow is going to be a low day.
plaster on fake smile, and  your good to go.
no one will ever know about the tears before bed
or about all of the wishing for better things
my dreams tonight and day dreams
tomorrow will be about this person
but still i don't want them out of my life

so what happens when someone else comes up.
someone sweet, kind, and makes you laugh
come in and wants a chance with you
do you give it to them?
even though you don't know if you can
how can you listen to your heart,
when it's still in the repair shop?

do you say no more wishing or hoping on falling stars?
 no more wanting to be held b someone you truely care about?
won't that lead to a cold heart?
i don't want to turn into that girl that guys know won't care about things that happen

so eric if you get a call from me- try not to worry too much.
i'll promise not to drive, or drink or do anything to harm myself
 you won't have a repeat of things