i hate life... kind of
I miss RCPC(rockland childrens psychiatric center), kind of. i miss some people, one in particular. i met a boy who's name is jonathan(jay). we got to talking and he's so incredibly wonderful, and with my luck, i leave. i mean, i'm happy to be out and what not, but this happens all the freaking time!!! i meet someone who could be sooooo good for me, and life goes and fucks it up. he's 17 and has been there since june 26th. so he said he should be getting out soon, and he's moving to lehigh valley pa. i'm not too sure where it is but i'm sure that it's closer to me than where he live now somewhere in ny. so when he gets out we can chill. i gave him my address and sn's and phone #. he said he'd write, i hope he does :/. i wrote him a poem:
You Are
you are the downy in my sheets
and it smells so good
you are the cotton in my hanes
when i fall you make it soft
you are the hot water in my shower
huging every last curve
you are the sugar in my coffee
making life a little sweet
you are the ice in my drink
to cool me off when i get hot
you are my shield of armour
protecting me from harm
you are the umbrella in the storm
sheltering me from the rain
you are the novicane in my mouth
letting mr feel no pain
you are the great big willow
providing shade from the blazing sun
you are the soft, thick blanket
that covers me when i'm cold
you are the teddy that i cuddle
so i'm not alone at night
you are the notes in my song
that create a melodic tune
you are my shooting star
making all my dreams come true
you are my tylenol
when i catch the flu
you are my lined paper
letting me pour my heart out on you
you are the salt in my tear
running down my cheek
you are the eyes i gaze into
when i need to feel love
you are mine to have
you are mine to hold
you are mine to hug
you are mine to kiss
you are... loved
i know it's kinda dorky... but he makes me smile. and i'm confused. i know that there probably won't be anything between us besides those feelings, and that we probably won't date, and the "other boy" i also gotta think about. i don't wanna hurt him, but i don't wanna go out with him, and still have feelings for jay. so maybe i'll let my feelings for jay die down before i do anything. if they do go away...
well, off to neverland to pretend i'm someone else who has a wonderful life. ciao!
You Are
you are the downy in my sheets
and it smells so good
you are the cotton in my hanes
when i fall you make it soft
you are the hot water in my shower
huging every last curve
you are the sugar in my coffee
making life a little sweet
you are the ice in my drink
to cool me off when i get hot
you are my shield of armour
protecting me from harm
you are the umbrella in the storm
sheltering me from the rain
you are the novicane in my mouth
letting mr feel no pain
you are the great big willow
providing shade from the blazing sun
you are the soft, thick blanket
that covers me when i'm cold
you are the teddy that i cuddle
so i'm not alone at night
you are the notes in my song
that create a melodic tune
you are my shooting star
making all my dreams come true
you are my tylenol
when i catch the flu
you are my lined paper
letting me pour my heart out on you
you are the salt in my tear
running down my cheek
you are the eyes i gaze into
when i need to feel love
you are mine to have
you are mine to hold
you are mine to hug
you are mine to kiss
you are... loved
i know it's kinda dorky... but he makes me smile. and i'm confused. i know that there probably won't be anything between us besides those feelings, and that we probably won't date, and the "other boy" i also gotta think about. i don't wanna hurt him, but i don't wanna go out with him, and still have feelings for jay. so maybe i'll let my feelings for jay die down before i do anything. if they do go away...
well, off to neverland to pretend i'm someone else who has a wonderful life. ciao!