I just graduated from the orthodontist!
My weekend plans are changed. It seems that for the past few months, i have been busy on saturday nights. and the group of friends was great, and they did great things for my birthday. but as of now, i feel that they want me in the past.
This weekend was like coming up for air. i could be myself and not be talked down to. i could engage in a conversation, and not be ignored. i could laugh, and everyone would laugh. i didn't feel ignored, or stupid, or immature, or out of place. i do believe that my weekends have become exciting.
i don't hate those people, but i think i'm doing them a favor by giving them a break from me.
and i like playing with my bonnaroo gang.
Kelseys home on sundays now, so i do believe we'll have to do lunch this sunday.
things with kelsey&grace are really good right now. in September/october, i felt that it was a competition between grace and i to get to kelsey, because we never saw her. but now, we can all engage in a conversation, and nobody is IGNORED or LOOKED DOWN UPON or INTERRUPTED, and its a good feeling.
i'm switching out of my math class TOMORROW. i've been saying that since friday, but now i really need to. Mr. hibino's a nice guy, but he wants to be mr. cool, and i need mr. teach-lauren-math-so-she-can-go-to-college.
i'm finally enjoying dance. sure i always liked it, but i felt really stupid when i was there. i think its because not that i have smaller classes, i can be myself, and not worry about who's watching. plus, the girls that i've been dancing with have gone down to my level. or maybe i have gone up to their level...
its the only place where i can have the attitude of
"look at me!"
"watch me do this!"
"watch me leap!"
"watch me as i present to you a large plate!"
and i'm SUPPOSED to do that, becaus i'm a ballerina.
peace.
This weekend was like coming up for air. i could be myself and not be talked down to. i could engage in a conversation, and not be ignored. i could laugh, and everyone would laugh. i didn't feel ignored, or stupid, or immature, or out of place. i do believe that my weekends have become exciting.
i don't hate those people, but i think i'm doing them a favor by giving them a break from me.
and i like playing with my bonnaroo gang.
Kelseys home on sundays now, so i do believe we'll have to do lunch this sunday.
things with kelsey&grace are really good right now. in September/october, i felt that it was a competition between grace and i to get to kelsey, because we never saw her. but now, we can all engage in a conversation, and nobody is IGNORED or LOOKED DOWN UPON or INTERRUPTED, and its a good feeling.
i'm switching out of my math class TOMORROW. i've been saying that since friday, but now i really need to. Mr. hibino's a nice guy, but he wants to be mr. cool, and i need mr. teach-lauren-math-so-she-can-go-to-college.
i'm finally enjoying dance. sure i always liked it, but i felt really stupid when i was there. i think its because not that i have smaller classes, i can be myself, and not worry about who's watching. plus, the girls that i've been dancing with have gone down to my level. or maybe i have gone up to their level...
its the only place where i can have the attitude of
"look at me!"
"watch me do this!"
"watch me leap!"
"watch me as i present to you a large plate!"
and i'm SUPPOSED to do that, becaus i'm a ballerina.
peace.