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Confusion is the cause of these questions that cause this confusion. Am I being real now or was I being real before? I can't answer that because real is subjective. I feel like I'm falling and falling fast with no one to catch me. I'm unsure of my footing, and don't know where to step next. The next could be my last, and first. First? What? Second? no! Second place? There is no "placing" in life, there is just decisions. Which one you make could determine you future...God give me a sign. I'm falling without a parachute and I'm gonna get hurt. Just like I"ve caused the hurt...the hurt I don't know was necessary. Trying? how do you try? But your tardy... class is over. Second? no! but in a way yes.... I hope this decision was correct, because if not regret is not something I feel. I'm gonna pee...and no one will hear me. 4:07 time for bed sleepy head...blah...........What?