thoughts from a prom queen (vain much?)
so high school is over and college has already begun. i took my english and math placement exams. surprisingly i passed the engish with flying colors and i did kinda poor on the math. its usually the other way around for me. i went back to the school today with kelly so we could have teachers sign our yearbooks. we need to go back again because we spent to much time at some teachers rooms and most were gonne when we tried to go to them. i went in to visit mrs. khosla (who btw put her phone number in my yearbook and was like "i know my way around fitchburg and im just a bus stop away from harvard square", so i think ill be seeing her) and we talked for a bit. i told her about the placement test and she was wicked pumped for me. its funny she was saying how whenever she would grade my work she would cringe cus she knew i could do so much better.
i now wonder how high school would have been different if i werent lazy and i actually tried. or if my parents had the money to put me in that special smart school in 1st grade (because knowing that a carpet is not magic and cannot help you learn amazes a veteran 1st grade teacher and makes her tell your parents on the 1st day that you should be in a special smart school... i just say thats common sence, even if i was only 5) if id be any different. i wonder if i would have gone thru the breakdown in 10th grade, or if id still be... me.
i dunno, now that school is over i am wicked pumped. i get to sleep till noon every day, i dont have to worry about the home work i decided not to do, i dont have to worry about getting OD because my id is not on, i dont have to deal with any of the high school drama. but i also dont get to see my friends on a daily basis, i dont get to skip class with kelly and visit mr. morreale or mrs. fancher or mr. B or any other teacher than the one im supposed to be with, i dont get to laugh like a seal during lunch and have people pretend not to know me, no more "the power of christ compels you" by mark when im insane with anger in the middle of the cafeteria and i scream back "im fucking jewish!" lmfao. no more waking up in the morning thinking "what am i going to wear... doesnt matter who the hell am i trying to impress in that place."
there's a lot of stuff ill miss and i already miss. And i really wish i was given a sash for being prom queen this year and prom princecss last year. i also wish that my info was done correctly and i didnt have to write in my own stuff so i wont forget. i wish i could go back and just do the fun social stuff. i mean thats what i did during all 4 years but now i wont have any qualms about not doing my work. i also kinda wish i could relive all 4 years and actually try. i really wonder where id be if i tried.
but what i miss most is my friends and talking to the teachers. i had some really great teachers who were great people. dont get me wrong ive had my share of horrible people ::cough mrs.brayton & mr.cook cough:: but she was fired and he was only a TA so its all good in the chood.
but im out because im tired. oh btw just thought this was something funny that i should share. back in oct/dec when i was talkin to mr B online i asked who his top 5 students were that he was attracted to. and he refused to answer. so i named some people and he would say maybe or no but never yes. but guess who i said and his reply was and i quote "EWWWWWW GROSS NEVER!!" none other than the girls that tried to get him fired, baity and diane. so i know this is old news but it was so funny and i wasnt allowed to talk about it during the school year so now that school is over i felt like sharing. :) oh and if anyone wants to know if mr. b liked them just ask cus although he never said who he was attracted to he def said who he wasnt.