mmm...SUMMER
I never write in here, but I feel it's fitting now.
So, as I was driving home from rehearsal today, at 45 mph, with all my windows down, and with Madonna's "Crazy For You" blasting from my speakers, I realized how excited I am for this summer. Being in a terriffic show with people who actually WANT to be there is going to be one amazing thing. Listening/singing to "Till We Reach That Day" and hearing ALL the parts tonight was just like, "WOW" because 2 weeks into blocking rehearsals at Centennial, we would have NEVER sounded like that. I'm so pumped for more crazy, weird times at Merry Ann's and in random parking lots and just in the kitchenette at the Busey Center. Those weird moments are exactly what make summer so special. And then Spain. First off, it's a trip and all second semester ever since Indiana for Easter got canceled, I've wanted to go on a trip so bad. Secondly, I'll finally be able to put Spanish into practicle use. Thirdly, food. Mmmm...can't wait for that most of all :). Of course, the car rides with friends, trips to Coldstone/Custard Cup, slumber parties, nights out for dinner, times at coffee shops, times at the park, movie nights, game nights, and soooo many other things are going to make this summer even more fantastic than the above two.
But then again, it's the beginning of the end. As much as everyone says "we'll keep in touch forever", the reality is so different. Eventually, the months will pass and people will simply drift apart. It won't be heart-breaking, it'll just be natural, and suddenly not having talked to a high school friend for a few months when you get to be a junior in college, won't seem so crazy. We'll all grow up, get smarter, make new friends, and move on with our lives. I hate it just as much as anyone and I'll do anything I can to not let that happen, but I know, inevitably, that it most likely will happen. The 6 some times I've moved, it's happened. The e-mails stop coming, the phone calls get rarer, and then things just end. The friendships not forgotten, though, which to me is what's important.
Most days, though, I feel overwhelmed. Especially with the college paper work and sign up dates. There's just so much to do and I'm constantly paranoid that I'm forgetting to send something in or forgetting to sign up for something. It suddenly like, "I have so many responsibilities". I also feel sad about leaving high school. I loved it- everything about it, even the horrible nights studying for AP Chem, and the nerve-wracking auditions, and the early morning Interact meetings. The bad times made the good so much better and I couldn't have asked for better classes, teachers, and students to share it with. It'll be hard to leave the yellow-tiled walls, the smelly P.E. lockers, and the insane teachers who make so mad for "the big unknown". But, I'm confident that these next four years will be a new kind of wonderful and I can't wait for them.