yo yo
Ok so i have had a few request to actually update this thing lol...... well lifes good..... im in good health as of right now lol..... i have the man of my dreams..... gettin A's in school and im still breathing so life cant completly suck ya know............ well good news my hubby will be coming home 2 months earlier then expected that means instead of a year overseas it will only be 10 months so that was great news to hear and i get to see him in a months so i am so excited !!! It is so strange the things you realize when your forced to face yourself. The first 18 years i was so dependent on people and during this time i have had to change alot about the way i do things and veiw things. I HAVE to be be responsible and rely on myself. I have also come to realize i am a stronger person then i ever thought i could be, that sounds so Cliché i know but yet it is the uttter truth. I never imagined myslef to be able to abandon a life i was used to and live in a state alone and come out ok. There are days when i am so alone and i break down but you know what i have come face to face with the reality of life and i am very thankful for that. I have grown up and that is a rewarding feeling. I also realized how amazing my husband is I have made mistakes and took advantage of his generosity and i never truly realized how much he did for me or how lucky i am but i see it all now. All the stupid fights we would have that i would start just seem so childish now. I loved my husband the day we got married more then anything but you know what i have come to see now that the love i had for him that beautiful day is different then the love i have for him now, my love has evolved into more then i could of anticipated it to ever become... I do understand what is is like to stand by your man and to love unconditionally i never knew what that meant before. I never knew what it meant to put someone above your self, i do now. Its crazy the lessons life teaches you....... ok updated happy lol.........