I'm hanging on today, nothings gonna stop me anyway...
So I realized why being "emotional" always drew me in....in high school I wanted to feel something deeper than I was feeling. I wanted to come across 'deep' when I was really very shallow...Not to say that anyone labeled "emo" is not deep...I just realized I wasnt...Now I relaize that the feeling i wanted to experience, i have now: that loved and loss feeling. Granted I havent really lost my love but he is leaving and i know already that i am going to be torn apart. I think i will just make an effort to fill up my time with crusade stuff, hanging with Ash and possibly even going out...not for the same purpose as fall last year though. I really think i am finally growing up. I agree with Natalie: its amazing how people change. In just a years time I am a completely different, even new person. Brianna is going to be a sophmore in high school and it kills me how old she is because i know that i was her age when i had my first boyfriend and such. All i know is that the next 2 years are going to be the most dramatically changin years of her life. In just two years, she will develop into a young woman, much like i did, on a slightly lower voice volume lol. God is amazing isnt He. He works wonders everyday and we dont realize it until we take a second and look back, take a deep breath and are thankful for what we've overcome and achieved. A couple entries ago i was class of 2005 and now i am not only the class of 2009, i am PC 05, girlfriend of almost 5 months, and also going into my second year at Cru. I love it.