Oh Gosh now I'm depressed
OK so I just read like the 40 entries from my friends cause I havent been at a computer lately. I've been at my moms house, and I came back to Georgetown only to slip into a pretty big slump of depression. Ok so here goes my rambling. and also no one get offended cause I most of you who read this it applies to you guys.
So I'm sitting at my desk almost everynight, doing nothin, cause I feel like I am totally out of the loop! I used to pride myself on having the capacity to be very good friends with many assorted groups in the school. and now I sit in my room just waiting for that damn cell phone to ring. and yeah I know, I could just call everyone else, but I feel like no one wants to hang out with me or even talk to me. And I dunno if thats just me feeling sorry about myself, or if people actually don't like me, or find me annoying. And I hate that cause if it's that I wish people would tell me so I could change.
Now I find that all of my good friends are hanging out with eachother and I'm left out of the circle. I miss all of my friends. I miss being crazy with Emilee for no apparent reason. I miss getting into heated debates with Heather and then making up after it. I miss all of those stupid little quibbles that I have with Sara. I miss Andy's (I never thought I'd say this) cryptic talk. I miss Lara and her never ending smile. I miss Astrid and being at eachothers throats 24/7 and still being wicked good friends. I miss laughing over nothin with Stephanie. I miss randomly flirting with Robin for no apparent reason and feeling so safe around her. I miss just sitting around with Emily K and relaxing. I miss Jen and aiding in her crazy antics.
I miss all of you guys soooo much and just wanted to let you guys know that
So I'm sitting at my desk almost everynight, doing nothin, cause I feel like I am totally out of the loop! I used to pride myself on having the capacity to be very good friends with many assorted groups in the school. and now I sit in my room just waiting for that damn cell phone to ring. and yeah I know, I could just call everyone else, but I feel like no one wants to hang out with me or even talk to me. And I dunno if thats just me feeling sorry about myself, or if people actually don't like me, or find me annoying. And I hate that cause if it's that I wish people would tell me so I could change.
Now I find that all of my good friends are hanging out with eachother and I'm left out of the circle. I miss all of my friends. I miss being crazy with Emilee for no apparent reason. I miss getting into heated debates with Heather and then making up after it. I miss all of those stupid little quibbles that I have with Sara. I miss Andy's (I never thought I'd say this) cryptic talk. I miss Lara and her never ending smile. I miss Astrid and being at eachothers throats 24/7 and still being wicked good friends. I miss laughing over nothin with Stephanie. I miss randomly flirting with Robin for no apparent reason and feeling so safe around her. I miss just sitting around with Emily K and relaxing. I miss Jen and aiding in her crazy antics.
I miss all of you guys soooo much and just wanted to let you guys know that