good night sweetheart. well it's time to go.
THANK YOU TO ALL MY GIRLS. IT WAS A TOP WEEKEND...TOP WEEKEND.
i think i have lost my game. i had to go to a wedding this weekend. it was extremely laid back b/c it was this girl's second marriage. it was at our friend's camp. the guy who married the two love birds got his minister's license over the internet-kinda thing. well anywho, the minister who is really a banker was really funny, charming, could hang well with the grown-ups. he was about 25. he was actually a friend of the bride's brother. well, at the reception, he was talking to my mom and dad. he walked away and i was asking mom who he was b/c she already knew him and he came back over and she introduced him to me-without being obvious. mama got some skills. and the conversation was going great. we were laughing and talking, sharing stories and as soon as mom leaves, it's just us two. and i have no idea what to say...it was awkward...i think i said something like "i like some of the other houses in this neighborhood"...and he was like "yep...i like that big brown one"..."sigh*"he went away to mingle with some more folks. i thought to myself maybe he's just shy or something, maybe i need to grow a pair and learn to initiate conversation by myself. so i gave myself another show. i saw him talking to my dad. and i pretended to go over to my dad to give him something and i stayed and talked to dad and the guy for a while. same thing again, we were laughing blah blah blah. well, my dad being the social butterfly leaves me alone with the guy again...me-"whoh! that thunder is really talking" him-"yep. sure is"..."*sigh*"...he leaves to get another beer. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. i have lost the ability to even strike up a conversation. what's wrong with me.aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
I got a the job- in the fall i'll be teaching talented drama kids out in livingston parish. we'll see how these kids are. I should be happy with said job but i'm not...
but a jobs a job that will lead to money that will lead to me getting my own place for a little while which will lead me not to be afraid of the real world which will lead to me getting the hell outa this city to wherever the wind blows me.
j.d had this guest speaker come in his class last week. he was the one of the first mfa grad students here at lsu and has made a great living for himself doing film. he knew he wasn't famous. that's not what he was after. he just wanted to act for the art and sheer enjoyment. his name is john mese. he really has just been doing a bunch of tv appearances. he just gave me a lot of hope for some reason. and made me consider film. i think i'd be happy playing the best friend or the funny waitress or what have you for the rest of my life if i could. i wish i could have stayed around and talked to him for a bit but i have to haul some ass across campus to make it in time for my next class-which is a bitch by the way. but he just gave me some insight more than the other guest speakers have in the past. i really wanted to thank him for that. hm.
rehearsal for ruddigore is going well. the music is just beautiful. i had almost forgotten what this kind of music does for my soul. i love having great songs stuck in my head all day knowing that i'll get to pass it on to all who sees the show. there is this one part in it that reminds me of phantom of the opera, where the phantom shows up at the masquerade ball. the guy who sings it is amazing. really all the singers are amazing. we do have some singers that aren't actors. i'm trying to be both but i haven't been training everyday like the disciplined music people who seem to have all their shit together. but i'm trying...
i'm trying...i have to now.
i think i have lost my game. i had to go to a wedding this weekend. it was extremely laid back b/c it was this girl's second marriage. it was at our friend's camp. the guy who married the two love birds got his minister's license over the internet-kinda thing. well anywho, the minister who is really a banker was really funny, charming, could hang well with the grown-ups. he was about 25. he was actually a friend of the bride's brother. well, at the reception, he was talking to my mom and dad. he walked away and i was asking mom who he was b/c she already knew him and he came back over and she introduced him to me-without being obvious. mama got some skills. and the conversation was going great. we were laughing and talking, sharing stories and as soon as mom leaves, it's just us two. and i have no idea what to say...it was awkward...i think i said something like "i like some of the other houses in this neighborhood"...and he was like "yep...i like that big brown one"..."sigh*"he went away to mingle with some more folks. i thought to myself maybe he's just shy or something, maybe i need to grow a pair and learn to initiate conversation by myself. so i gave myself another show. i saw him talking to my dad. and i pretended to go over to my dad to give him something and i stayed and talked to dad and the guy for a while. same thing again, we were laughing blah blah blah. well, my dad being the social butterfly leaves me alone with the guy again...me-"whoh! that thunder is really talking" him-"yep. sure is"..."*sigh*"...he leaves to get another beer. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. i have lost the ability to even strike up a conversation. what's wrong with me.aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
I got a the job- in the fall i'll be teaching talented drama kids out in livingston parish. we'll see how these kids are. I should be happy with said job but i'm not...
but a jobs a job that will lead to money that will lead to me getting my own place for a little while which will lead me not to be afraid of the real world which will lead to me getting the hell outa this city to wherever the wind blows me.
j.d had this guest speaker come in his class last week. he was the one of the first mfa grad students here at lsu and has made a great living for himself doing film. he knew he wasn't famous. that's not what he was after. he just wanted to act for the art and sheer enjoyment. his name is john mese. he really has just been doing a bunch of tv appearances. he just gave me a lot of hope for some reason. and made me consider film. i think i'd be happy playing the best friend or the funny waitress or what have you for the rest of my life if i could. i wish i could have stayed around and talked to him for a bit but i have to haul some ass across campus to make it in time for my next class-which is a bitch by the way. but he just gave me some insight more than the other guest speakers have in the past. i really wanted to thank him for that. hm.
rehearsal for ruddigore is going well. the music is just beautiful. i had almost forgotten what this kind of music does for my soul. i love having great songs stuck in my head all day knowing that i'll get to pass it on to all who sees the show. there is this one part in it that reminds me of phantom of the opera, where the phantom shows up at the masquerade ball. the guy who sings it is amazing. really all the singers are amazing. we do have some singers that aren't actors. i'm trying to be both but i haven't been training everyday like the disciplined music people who seem to have all their shit together. but i'm trying...
i'm trying...i have to now.