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[creepyshitking]

[Looks like a certain blood spatter pattern analyst got into the band candy.... Oops. For all the Dexter muses out there: Dexter totally gave you some too c:]I've never really seen the point in pretending. Why am I still following the rules laid down by a dead man? If he had something important to say, wouldn't he still be here to say it

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[notasinglelady]

I can relate to that.

Are you all right, Dex?

[creepyshitking]

[That catches his interest, and he ignores Kurt's question. It's really not interesting, after all.]

You don't fit either?

[notasinglelady]

No, most of the time I don't. And sometimes I just give up on trying, I'm proud of being different.

[creepyshitking]

You're not like me, Kurt. [just...saying.]

Harry taught me to always hide it. To pretend. But he's gone now, so why am I still pretending?

[notasinglelady]

I know, I know. [He figures that Dexter problem is not like his own, with him being happily married and with kids.]But I was talking about the 'non fitting anywhere' feeling.

Force of habit maybe? I you don't like to hide maybe you can find a way to express it properly.

[creepyshitking]

... Maybe that's not the best idea.

[notasinglelady]

Is that much of a big secret?

[He wonders if you are a a drug dealer or something, Dexter.]

[creepyshitking]

Something like that.

[not exactly :C]

[notasinglelady]

Even if you think you don't fit now perhaps things will be different in the future. I'm sure your father wanted the best for you, even if sometimes that's hard to remember. I fight with mine form time to time too, but I know he cares.

[He usually thinks the best of people, ok? 'murderer' never crosses his mind :/]

[creepyshitking]

He didn't like what I am either. What does it matter what he wanted?

[notasinglelady]

He knew? How he discovered it?

You don't usually talk about your Dad like that. Something happened?

[creepyshitking]

It's like I'm opening my eyes for the first time, and the mask is slipping....

[notasinglelady]

[Oh Dexter, you and your middle age murderer crisis :<]

If you don't like what's under it maybe you can try to change it.

[creepyshitking]

I know who I am. It doesn't bother me.

And it's not something I can fix.

[notasinglelady]

But still worries you?

[creepyshitking]

To show to others, yes.