attempt number twenty-two ♻ (video)
If one more person on this stupid community forgets me, I swear I'm gonna explode. I mean, it shouldn't even matter, right? But, every time a new one piles on it's like another knife in my back and I feel like I can't breathe.
I've lost so much already, I can't lose the people here who matter to me too. [ She shuts her eyes and rubs them with the tips of her fingers, sighing. ] I thought I was past all of this memory wiping crap. I'm not cut out for handling it again. It's scary.
I know, I know. "It's part of the deal," "cry more." But I didn't sign up for this. I don't think it's asking too much for my friends to keep their memories. You just don't mess with someone's head like that, it's not fair. They're not hard drives you can reformat.
A lot of you have been around for a lot longer than I have. You must have some way to deal with this stuff, right?
[ooc; Claire is not one of the virus infected. This is just ... her whining because of Sam coming back recently and now Spike getting virus'd and the Haitian has given her amnesia PTSD over people forgetting her. 8( Feels bad, man. And it will ... be worse when S1!Zuko rolls up no doubt, so /gets this out early yeahhhh.]
I've lost so much already, I can't lose the people here who matter to me too. [ She shuts her eyes and rubs them with the tips of her fingers, sighing. ] I thought I was past all of this memory wiping crap. I'm not cut out for handling it again. It's scary.
I know, I know. "It's part of the deal," "cry more." But I didn't sign up for this. I don't think it's asking too much for my friends to keep their memories. You just don't mess with someone's head like that, it's not fair. They're not hard drives you can reformat.
A lot of you have been around for a lot longer than I have. You must have some way to deal with this stuff, right?
[ooc; Claire is not one of the virus infected. This is just ... her whining because of Sam coming back recently and now Spike getting virus'd and the Haitian has given her amnesia PTSD over people forgetting her. 8( Feels bad, man. And it will ... be worse when S1!Zuko rolls up no doubt, so /gets this out early yeahhhh.]