decisions
For those of you hat don't know, we had a puppy for about 2 weeks two weeks ago and took him back to the shelter. It was a no kill sheler and he was 4 months old, so i'm sure he has already been adopted by now. He was such a handful. We live in an apartment and it wasn't far because he was cooped up in his crate a lot during the day. I came home and let him out a lot, but I always felt guilty...like I wasn't doing enough. I feel worse because he was so smart. He learned quickly how to sleep through the night and how to not go in the house. Problem was, I was taking him out like 20 times a day.
often i think i was the right choice for everyone. David was miserable and stressed out just coming home. I was always running around, trying to make sure the puppy got let out enough, got enough attention...etc...while balancing my internship and schoolwork. David and I had no time for each other. We couldn' get through a 30 minute tv show because the puppy was always needing something. Not having a backyard is terrible.
But other times, i feel so horrible about it. School is ending in a month, and if I had waited...I would finally have enough time for the puppy. He was such a quick learner, things might have gotten better if we gave it more time. We jus had no idea how hard it would be in an apartment to make it work, especially because we are not the type to just crate the dog all the time. I sometimes wish we had given it more time, though I know that would have made it harder if we decided to take him back...plus we wanted to give him back while he was still young enough to be appealing to families.
it still hurts, I really loved him. I'm sure the timing was wrong, i just wish I was 100% certain it wouldn't have gotten better.
I hate feeling sad.