EVERYTHING'S CHANGING
My dream last night was filled with all of the people I see everyday. They were exactly as they are. Those I wanted were there but paid no more attention to me than usual. Those I loved, loved me back but had to leave as always. I had a purpose but i don't remember what it was. I woke up exhausted mentally.
What's new with me eh? I went to the doctor today. a new doctor. my new ny doctor. she was impressed with my health and lifestyle. she gave me a prescription for emergency contraception just in case, without asking me if i wanted or needed it. she was very kind and i like her a lot. i got a tetnus shot and my arm hurts.
i realize that i'm working at my job mostly because i want to stay friends with kim and want to become better friends with my bosses. a strange reason i know. maybe i'm feeling graduation coming and now i'm grasping at whatever i have that could potentially be important.
this saturday, i would love nothing more than to curl up in my room all day with some sort of reading or movie or something that i don't have to do too much to. Or something relaly moving or inspiring. gosh, how i could use some inspiration.
a conversation recently led to discussing how in every choice there are opportunities, no matter which you choose. but what if i don't feel i have a choice? do i still get those opportunities?
i wish there was a day that i didn't feel it neccessary to dwell on losing ten pounds or the perfect time to talk to him...
i want to do my work. i love it and i want to get better. but i am exhausted.
What's new with me eh? I went to the doctor today. a new doctor. my new ny doctor. she was impressed with my health and lifestyle. she gave me a prescription for emergency contraception just in case, without asking me if i wanted or needed it. she was very kind and i like her a lot. i got a tetnus shot and my arm hurts.
i realize that i'm working at my job mostly because i want to stay friends with kim and want to become better friends with my bosses. a strange reason i know. maybe i'm feeling graduation coming and now i'm grasping at whatever i have that could potentially be important.
this saturday, i would love nothing more than to curl up in my room all day with some sort of reading or movie or something that i don't have to do too much to. Or something relaly moving or inspiring. gosh, how i could use some inspiration.
a conversation recently led to discussing how in every choice there are opportunities, no matter which you choose. but what if i don't feel i have a choice? do i still get those opportunities?
i wish there was a day that i didn't feel it neccessary to dwell on losing ten pounds or the perfect time to talk to him...
i want to do my work. i love it and i want to get better. but i am exhausted.