Rainy day ephinay
Apparently the amount of work that I'm putting in is not enough. Nor is my study method. I have to try something different, and study smarter, or else I just may as well quit school and sign up for a life of dead end jobs. I know that it is partly my fault for why my grades are. but G-d Damn't!! I hate this. It was unnerving just how accurate he was about my own self defeat cycle. I fear the un-pending doom of my grades and freak out. Then scramble to pick up the pieces and try to hold it all together. This has never been healthy, but at least I was able to keep up a 3.0 average. Well here that's not the case. The classes are only going to become more and more difficult. And Bio is just the beginning, then I have genetics, ecology, stats for reseasrch, anatomy and phys. I mean, jeezus! Sciences are one of The hardest majors so of course I pick it. "slams head into wall". As disappointed as I am in my grades, I can't give up. There is no future for me by not finishing school. So instead, I'm going to go see my professor and tell him. "Well I need to try something different so I figure I'd go to you now about lab instead of struggling on my own. My other classes also require even more time. Fucking A, as if 2 hours of studying a night isn't enough. Well when I can...I procrastinate which is once again my fault. *sighs* well the only thing to do now is to try something different. Cause life ain't going to get easier or better by being mopey. It's cool that instead of feeling defeated I feel invigorated. The mopeness passed on with the next!