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OK so Chris and I are talking again, which is a good thing. Said he wasn't mad at me at all. Not sure though, he seemed rather pissed when he hung up the phone for the conversation prior to my last entry. The whole Jason thing... well he told me that he is not looking for a relationship anytime in the near future and after the last conversation we had I cant say as I blame him. He does need some time for himself right about now. It just sucks that I can't do anything to help. I mean I know I barely know the guy but I do consider him at least a friend and I hate to see my friends hurting or upset and not be able to do anything to "solve" whatever problem is going on. *Deep sigh* so I suppose I will just have to wait things out with Jason and hope for the best. Then there is the whole problem though of my wanting to be with Chris. He really is an incredible guy, but he lives in PA. How the hell would I work that out when he lives something like 16-18 hours away? Sure we could visit eachother on occasion, but that gets expensive. And sure there is talking on the phone but that is only so "intimate" so to speak. I crave that physical connection with someone and with the distance being what it is I wouldnt be able to get that from Chris. All that being said, I really do like Jason. He is a great person and I would date him in a heartbeat. It just sucks that he has to work all this shit out first before he would be ready to date, let alone the fact that Im not even sure if he would want to date me in the first place. Anyways Im going to stop dwelling on this shit now and get some stuff done here at the library (did I spell that right??) Anyways, TTFN