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This will probally be my last entry, ill still get on time to time and maybe leave a comment every once in awhile but thats about it. I really do feel like the is something with the way i think, I've been bursting out angrily at ppl, Ive been loosing my concentration when i really need it, and i keep doing things without thinking about the outcome of what will happen or how it will effect ppl. Ive been ruining every thing in my life and i dont really feel like i can talk to ppl ne more. I have been thinking alot about my old town, i want to get back to it but in other ways i dont want to leave here...My original plan when i came here was to just live here for as long as i could untill i felt good enough to go back to Michigan and that would be that but i met Mab and i didnt care about going back ne more but lately Michigan has been on my mind too much and it freaked me out when i relized how attatched Mab and me were...so i ended up braking up with her, after thinking about it i figured it would be ok untill one of us left when the time came but then i ended up dreaming about what would happen when it did happen and i broke up with her again...I really wish i didnt, im being really stupid and i wish i could just hide away for awhile until i could sort myself out. Maybe if I disappeared, ppl would just forget about me and i could start again, but of course thats probally what everyone wants. I kinda wish i could just stop thinking because it hasnt been doing me too much good...I hoping it will pass soon. Untill when ever, ill c u all later.