It's gonna hurt... and I love the pain.
and I miss you love....
Fuck i'm listening to silverchair "Miss you love" and I'm replaying everything that happened tonight. I broke up with cindy... basically because she can't show me how she feels. She can't tell me that she wants me or needs me... and I spill my heart out for her constantly. she can look me in the eyes and pretend she doesn't care... when I know she does... but I need to hear it sometimes... because otherwise... I feel that I'm just convincing myself that she feels half of what I feel for her. I love that girl. so much that my stomach is in knots and I am so scared that I have made the biggest mistake of my life. I told her that I'm leaving to give her time to figure out what she wants... and to figure out her feelings. she told me goodbye. It hurt me to hug her. I wanna cry now. I feel it in my throat. I watched the tears in her eyes... but she didn't let them fall. at least not in front of me. I just want her to open up to me.. and to tell me what she wants and feels and needs. I don't want to be every other girl. I hope she realizes one way or another what she wants... before it's too late. I fucking miss her. man... She's so stubborn I may have just lost her forever... and just typing that makes me cry. Holy fuck... what have I done...
Fuck i'm listening to silverchair "Miss you love" and I'm replaying everything that happened tonight. I broke up with cindy... basically because she can't show me how she feels. She can't tell me that she wants me or needs me... and I spill my heart out for her constantly. she can look me in the eyes and pretend she doesn't care... when I know she does... but I need to hear it sometimes... because otherwise... I feel that I'm just convincing myself that she feels half of what I feel for her. I love that girl. so much that my stomach is in knots and I am so scared that I have made the biggest mistake of my life. I told her that I'm leaving to give her time to figure out what she wants... and to figure out her feelings. she told me goodbye. It hurt me to hug her. I wanna cry now. I feel it in my throat. I watched the tears in her eyes... but she didn't let them fall. at least not in front of me. I just want her to open up to me.. and to tell me what she wants and feels and needs. I don't want to be every other girl. I hope she realizes one way or another what she wants... before it's too late. I fucking miss her. man... She's so stubborn I may have just lost her forever... and just typing that makes me cry. Holy fuck... what have I done...