weekend
ok so im not gonna go thru all the details of the weekend. ill just write the important things down.
friday....mom called to say logan was comin b/t 430 and 5. my car was finally done. it cost $105. let me pull that outta my ass. john called around 345. he said he would b at ron's around 4. i said ok i had to get dressed and than i would pick him up. so i picked him up. he took a shower here. logan came. he's so cute. john played online casino for like an hour. we took logan to his house so he could get clean clothes and than to the liqour store. i gave him $10 for malibou. they didnt have it so he bought jack daniels drinks. he drank them all so i said i wanted my money back. we ate tuna casserole. he played online for another couple hours. than we went to dairy queen and got ice cream. he paid. wow thats a first. we smoked a lil in my car outside the house. than we started watchin old school and eatin ice cream. we got too tired so we went to bed.
saturday...woke up at like 630ish and got logan up. i gave him some apples and milk. i took a shower and got dressed. packed john food for work...porkroll egg and cheese sandwich, apple slices, and a juice box. things b/t us are gettin good again. we're almost establishin what we used to have. altho he hasn't said "i love u" yet i think he does and he's just scared. but idk if i love him anymore as he has pushed me very far away w/ what he has done. i got logan ready to go out and drove john to work. i came home and gave logan his bath and than got him dressed. i made oatmeal for the 2 of us and i took him to the bank and than to get gas and than we went to winward for an hour. we had fun. he fell once ang cried but he was ok. he tired me out. we got home and i gave him doritos for a snack and some juice. we laid down and watched a movie. he was almost asleep but than timmy came home and he woke up. so i changed his diaper..yucky poop diaper and it got all over my arm. gross. that mom came home so i got him dressed again and we went ot the eye doc. i picked out glasses and ordered more contacts...$500. than we headed to the boardwalk. john called. he woudl b at ron's in 15 min and wanted me to pick him up. i said if we didn't find a parkin spot we would get him but we did and so i asked if ron could bring him here and he said no he had to go out but he was stayin there to clal when we were leavin. so we put logan on 3 rides, took him on the beach and than we picked up john. he's such a fuckin jerk when he's w/ ron..always makin rude ass comments on the phone. we came to my house and finished watchin old school. logan slept. i than asked john what movie we were goin too. we didn't go. he said it was too late. w/e. so i was pissed. we went to joshua huddy for dinner. than we dropped off logan. we wound up stayin for awhile as john helped put together a tv thing. than we went home. i started in at john..bitchin about how he is and how he's just usin me. if he wont allow me to talk to him like normal ppl than alli can do is bitch rite? i mean if i have to keep holdin things in than he's gonna learn that im gonna burst. it would b so much easier if he could b mature and talk about things. he was goin to play poker tonite. so he has no money for the movies but money for the poker. and i made a comment about how he spent my easter present money on his pot. i dropped him off and didn't say a word the entire ride. he said he would call me tomororw and kissed me. i went home and went to sleep.
sunday...happy easter. so i woke up around 10. me and mom had eggs together and watched a half hour of freddy vs jason. than we took our showers and got ready to go. we left for grammas. i played w/ logan. i got hair dye and $15 for easter from gramma. i watched happy gilmore w/ tim and uncle jay and we all fell asleep. than logan woke me up. we ate dinner. shayne and me played black jack..i beat him a lot. than i taught him how to play no peek poker. he kicked my ass several times. just my luck rite...lol. it was amazin. john called around 4ish. we didn't really talk. he said he would call me later. i had cheesecake for dessert. played some solitair and then me and mom played spit. than we left. we finished watchin freddy vs jason and than watched identity. i def wanna get that movie. john called to see what i was dion. he was goin to play poker in a lil while again and said he would call me when he got home. i went to sleep at like 1030 or earlier. john called around 1. we got in a fite. he had smoked pot and i was mad b/c he broke his promise. he didn't see the big deal. of course. he than told me that he's tired of me complainin about stupid shit. like y is everything htat is important to me stupid shit all the time? if its important to me it should b important to him too. he said he didn't wanna b tied down. so like wtf has he been doin w/ me the past 2 months? just when i think things are gonna b good again he has to b a fuckin jerk. he hung up on me and i called him back but somehow i dialed john m cell phone. i was all yellin y the fuck did u hang up on me and he was like wtf are u talkin about. i was shit im sorry i dialed the wrong number. how fuckin embarrassing was that. so i called john and he was like stop callin this late. i was like this was the first time i called and u called me twice alrady this morning. so than i was like its obvious udc and he was like u keep sayin that so y dont u just start believin it. so i hung up. than i remembered that his mom asked if i had off so i called him just to say i had off and said bye and hung up. i also forgot to mention that im misisn like 5 or 6 vicatins. he's fuckin stealin from me. what kinda scum is he? im done actin like his gurl. no more favors for him, no more smokin and no more sex. i know ive said this before but i absolutly 100% am livin by it now. my heart is closed off and he is gettin nothin more from me. if he wants to hang out fine but no more am i gonna act all gurlfriendyish around him. it seemed like we were back together but he always has to b a jerk in the end. i took me like 2 hours before i finally fell back to sleep. it was fuckin ridiculous.
monday...still no word from the weintraubs. another stupid telemarketer called me at 9 am. i slept til 1130. i called john to see if he was home b/c i left clothes over there but he wasn't. he said he had work b/t 11 and 1130 i guess i missed him. i said to clal me back when he gets in. i wonder if he's gonna call me for a ride home today. he owes me $5 so if he wants me to pick him up he can buy me my $7 bottle of malibou. he's not gettin nothin for free anymore..not after what he said to me last nite. i took my shower and called mom. irene was over. i asked mom how her eye was. i forgot to mention that last nite gizmo scratched her eye and it was all bleedin. she said she just got back form the doc and she was comin home that iw as worse than yesterday. she has to keep cold on it today and hot on it tomoror.w she also got drops to help it heal. she came home and i wnet online to try and print shit but th printer is retarted. than i ate breakfast. we watched x2. and here i am. i have homework to do. im not even dressed yet. me and mel mite go to the movies tomorrow. wed me and mom are goin to the post office and to tj maxx. other than that i have no plans. o john promised to go to the pool hall w/ me..he promised this last week. his promises really meannothin but hey we'll see what happens. i wont hold my breathe.
friday....mom called to say logan was comin b/t 430 and 5. my car was finally done. it cost $105. let me pull that outta my ass. john called around 345. he said he would b at ron's around 4. i said ok i had to get dressed and than i would pick him up. so i picked him up. he took a shower here. logan came. he's so cute. john played online casino for like an hour. we took logan to his house so he could get clean clothes and than to the liqour store. i gave him $10 for malibou. they didnt have it so he bought jack daniels drinks. he drank them all so i said i wanted my money back. we ate tuna casserole. he played online for another couple hours. than we went to dairy queen and got ice cream. he paid. wow thats a first. we smoked a lil in my car outside the house. than we started watchin old school and eatin ice cream. we got too tired so we went to bed.
saturday...woke up at like 630ish and got logan up. i gave him some apples and milk. i took a shower and got dressed. packed john food for work...porkroll egg and cheese sandwich, apple slices, and a juice box. things b/t us are gettin good again. we're almost establishin what we used to have. altho he hasn't said "i love u" yet i think he does and he's just scared. but idk if i love him anymore as he has pushed me very far away w/ what he has done. i got logan ready to go out and drove john to work. i came home and gave logan his bath and than got him dressed. i made oatmeal for the 2 of us and i took him to the bank and than to get gas and than we went to winward for an hour. we had fun. he fell once ang cried but he was ok. he tired me out. we got home and i gave him doritos for a snack and some juice. we laid down and watched a movie. he was almost asleep but than timmy came home and he woke up. so i changed his diaper..yucky poop diaper and it got all over my arm. gross. that mom came home so i got him dressed again and we went ot the eye doc. i picked out glasses and ordered more contacts...$500. than we headed to the boardwalk. john called. he woudl b at ron's in 15 min and wanted me to pick him up. i said if we didn't find a parkin spot we would get him but we did and so i asked if ron could bring him here and he said no he had to go out but he was stayin there to clal when we were leavin. so we put logan on 3 rides, took him on the beach and than we picked up john. he's such a fuckin jerk when he's w/ ron..always makin rude ass comments on the phone. we came to my house and finished watchin old school. logan slept. i than asked john what movie we were goin too. we didn't go. he said it was too late. w/e. so i was pissed. we went to joshua huddy for dinner. than we dropped off logan. we wound up stayin for awhile as john helped put together a tv thing. than we went home. i started in at john..bitchin about how he is and how he's just usin me. if he wont allow me to talk to him like normal ppl than alli can do is bitch rite? i mean if i have to keep holdin things in than he's gonna learn that im gonna burst. it would b so much easier if he could b mature and talk about things. he was goin to play poker tonite. so he has no money for the movies but money for the poker. and i made a comment about how he spent my easter present money on his pot. i dropped him off and didn't say a word the entire ride. he said he would call me tomororw and kissed me. i went home and went to sleep.
sunday...happy easter. so i woke up around 10. me and mom had eggs together and watched a half hour of freddy vs jason. than we took our showers and got ready to go. we left for grammas. i played w/ logan. i got hair dye and $15 for easter from gramma. i watched happy gilmore w/ tim and uncle jay and we all fell asleep. than logan woke me up. we ate dinner. shayne and me played black jack..i beat him a lot. than i taught him how to play no peek poker. he kicked my ass several times. just my luck rite...lol. it was amazin. john called around 4ish. we didn't really talk. he said he would call me later. i had cheesecake for dessert. played some solitair and then me and mom played spit. than we left. we finished watchin freddy vs jason and than watched identity. i def wanna get that movie. john called to see what i was dion. he was goin to play poker in a lil while again and said he would call me when he got home. i went to sleep at like 1030 or earlier. john called around 1. we got in a fite. he had smoked pot and i was mad b/c he broke his promise. he didn't see the big deal. of course. he than told me that he's tired of me complainin about stupid shit. like y is everything htat is important to me stupid shit all the time? if its important to me it should b important to him too. he said he didn't wanna b tied down. so like wtf has he been doin w/ me the past 2 months? just when i think things are gonna b good again he has to b a fuckin jerk. he hung up on me and i called him back but somehow i dialed john m cell phone. i was all yellin y the fuck did u hang up on me and he was like wtf are u talkin about. i was shit im sorry i dialed the wrong number. how fuckin embarrassing was that. so i called john and he was like stop callin this late. i was like this was the first time i called and u called me twice alrady this morning. so than i was like its obvious udc and he was like u keep sayin that so y dont u just start believin it. so i hung up. than i remembered that his mom asked if i had off so i called him just to say i had off and said bye and hung up. i also forgot to mention that im misisn like 5 or 6 vicatins. he's fuckin stealin from me. what kinda scum is he? im done actin like his gurl. no more favors for him, no more smokin and no more sex. i know ive said this before but i absolutly 100% am livin by it now. my heart is closed off and he is gettin nothin more from me. if he wants to hang out fine but no more am i gonna act all gurlfriendyish around him. it seemed like we were back together but he always has to b a jerk in the end. i took me like 2 hours before i finally fell back to sleep. it was fuckin ridiculous.
monday...still no word from the weintraubs. another stupid telemarketer called me at 9 am. i slept til 1130. i called john to see if he was home b/c i left clothes over there but he wasn't. he said he had work b/t 11 and 1130 i guess i missed him. i said to clal me back when he gets in. i wonder if he's gonna call me for a ride home today. he owes me $5 so if he wants me to pick him up he can buy me my $7 bottle of malibou. he's not gettin nothin for free anymore..not after what he said to me last nite. i took my shower and called mom. irene was over. i asked mom how her eye was. i forgot to mention that last nite gizmo scratched her eye and it was all bleedin. she said she just got back form the doc and she was comin home that iw as worse than yesterday. she has to keep cold on it today and hot on it tomoror.w she also got drops to help it heal. she came home and i wnet online to try and print shit but th printer is retarted. than i ate breakfast. we watched x2. and here i am. i have homework to do. im not even dressed yet. me and mel mite go to the movies tomorrow. wed me and mom are goin to the post office and to tj maxx. other than that i have no plans. o john promised to go to the pool hall w/ me..he promised this last week. his promises really meannothin but hey we'll see what happens. i wont hold my breathe.