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The attic is nearing completion-hoping to be in before new years eve but that might be pushing it. Austin has been working on getting the mudding done on the dry wall and soon we will get paint. I kind of didnt want to paint but Austin does and he has a vote because...he's moving in with me! He's here all the time anyway-it makes sense and lowers rent a great deal. The new set up will have my bed not pushed against the wall for like the first time...ever. Its a small and weird thing to think about I know but I've been single so long that I've never really considered those types of things. I am a little scared about actually living together-sometimes we drive each other nuts but we love each other. We've more or less lived together since we started dating but this is all official and stuff.
I am excited to decorate the attic. We have cool tapestries for the walls. I am hoping when its done I will finally feel at home here.
I hate my job. I miss having a job where I got time off for the holidays. I am working both Christmas day and the day after Christmas (which is apparently when lots of places are "observing" Christmas and shutting down)-while the shift the day after Christmas means I get paid twice for one day I am still annoyed to have to work both. Christmas eve was Voluntary last year and I volunteered and it was AWFUL. The calls were honestly all people telling me how I ruined Christmas because an order did not ship on time or arrive on time. It was miserable. I went home and got in a fight with the person living in my apartment at the time and then spent the night and next day drinking wine alone, crying and later having phone sex with a married man. Not my finest moment.
This Christmas will be better because I wont have that person living in my house anymore and the married guy has been blocked on my phone but it does still look like it'll be kinda lonely. Austin has to work at 3pm-will likely not wake up until 1pm b/c he has to close on Christmas eve. I guess I'll just run poems, watch movies and try not to think about the fact that the last good Christmas I had was with Jeff. Make no mistake I am happy with Austin-its not his fault he has to work. People will say that Christmas is just another day but it used to be big deal in my family but it fell apart. I used to spend it with a friend's family but like this house I felt like a guest and I miss Christmas being a comfortable warm thing.I have been really trying to get into some Holiday cheer this year but it just isn't happening. I didnt feel well enough to decorate the way I like to. I did manage the tree and some lights and such across the mantel but I didnt have the money or ability to throw a party like I did last year and I really wanted to. Christmas used to feel sort of magic and it just seems to go dull no matter how much I try to shine it up now-maybe thats just how it happens when you're an adult.
I am excited to decorate the attic. We have cool tapestries for the walls. I am hoping when its done I will finally feel at home here.
I hate my job. I miss having a job where I got time off for the holidays. I am working both Christmas day and the day after Christmas (which is apparently when lots of places are "observing" Christmas and shutting down)-while the shift the day after Christmas means I get paid twice for one day I am still annoyed to have to work both. Christmas eve was Voluntary last year and I volunteered and it was AWFUL. The calls were honestly all people telling me how I ruined Christmas because an order did not ship on time or arrive on time. It was miserable. I went home and got in a fight with the person living in my apartment at the time and then spent the night and next day drinking wine alone, crying and later having phone sex with a married man. Not my finest moment.
This Christmas will be better because I wont have that person living in my house anymore and the married guy has been blocked on my phone but it does still look like it'll be kinda lonely. Austin has to work at 3pm-will likely not wake up until 1pm b/c he has to close on Christmas eve. I guess I'll just run poems, watch movies and try not to think about the fact that the last good Christmas I had was with Jeff. Make no mistake I am happy with Austin-its not his fault he has to work. People will say that Christmas is just another day but it used to be big deal in my family but it fell apart. I used to spend it with a friend's family but like this house I felt like a guest and I miss Christmas being a comfortable warm thing.I have been really trying to get into some Holiday cheer this year but it just isn't happening. I didnt feel well enough to decorate the way I like to. I did manage the tree and some lights and such across the mantel but I didnt have the money or ability to throw a party like I did last year and I really wanted to. Christmas used to feel sort of magic and it just seems to go dull no matter how much I try to shine it up now-maybe thats just how it happens when you're an adult.