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there are 21 days until i go see gabe. He sounded so
excited when i told him that. I sent him an email
yesterday explaining all of the things about me that
he doesnt know. That no one knows. Things that have
made me who i am. He wont see me the same way. For
better or worse, his perception might change. I know
he loves me, and wont leave, but im embarrassed that i
told him. But hell hopefully understand me better. I
think im scared because hes the only one i have ever
trusted enough to lay myself bare for. I love him. I
feel weak and tainted. But at least im here and i have
him to lean on. And he has me when he cant talk to
anyone else. I hope youre all well.
excited when i told him that. I sent him an email
yesterday explaining all of the things about me that
he doesnt know. That no one knows. Things that have
made me who i am. He wont see me the same way. For
better or worse, his perception might change. I know
he loves me, and wont leave, but im embarrassed that i
told him. But hell hopefully understand me better. I
think im scared because hes the only one i have ever
trusted enough to lay myself bare for. I love him. I
feel weak and tainted. But at least im here and i have
him to lean on. And he has me when he cant talk to
anyone else. I hope youre all well.