Changing step
But mostly I hate myself, and my inability to ever say what I really mean, or to open up to anyone. My anxieties and neuroses. I hate that little voice in my head that is CONSTANTLY telling me what I can't do, that I'm not good enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough.
I had a whole entry written, but that's the only part that survived my deleating rampage.
I've decided to not let my temper ruin more then it already has, and to shut my mouth and try to swallow my pride. I'll do the show, because I will probably regret it if I pull out now.
Oh, and if you are the type of person who would normally respond to this with a sympathetic comment, don't. I'm fairly fed up with most of you, so unless you actually have something productive to say, or you normally wouldn't comment at all, keep it to yourself.