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everything is so fucking hard now i hate thinking about college, i pick out what i want and where i will go and then completely change my mind. its hard on me and others and i feel like shit because i am hurting his feelings, i would love to go to college with him and just let things be the way they are now for forever, but im a big sucker for fate and im thinking whatever is supposed to happen, will. we have to break up because its college and we wont be together, its not what i want at all but we have to.. long distance doesnt work out i dont feel like OSU is the right college for me and i cant let cole be a factor in my decision because its my future but i can still see myself going there and loving it i am more confused than ever i hate this