Big Update. Photos.
College. Regardless of all the shit that was thrown on me (It's really not pertanent that I explain the specifics here. All you need to know is that everything went wrong) I really had an amazing semester. My roommate was really awesome. In fact, my entire hallway was incredible. We all got a long and went through a lot. All of us got written up for ungodly amounts of alcohol that had been thrown out in the hallway garbage can that our RA removed from our dorm rooms after he realized he wouldn't be our RA for much longer (Greatest RA ever). And no one took the blame. We all covered it up. There really a lot more that should go here like the alcohol posioning, shattered windows from various hallway sports, hallway jams at 4 am (or until an RA came by), and sounds of sex and /or mice from the room above. I essentially ended up flunking out. Regardless, I had decided earlier on I wasn't going back. I'm applying to NC state school for next fall as a freshman...woo...
So, I was picked up on December 15th and packed all my stuff into a toyota camry. It was a pretty rough saying goodbye. I didn't even say goodbye, thinking back. Haha I said "I'll see you guys later." Truth is I probably won't. God knows when I'll ever get the chance to even visit home again. Anyway, I hugged the presesion of people helping me pack. Jackie, Maura, Courtney, Joe, and Don. Hugged them all and ran. I'll be honest here (this would be a terrible place to lie) I was choked up. We stayed at my Oma's for the night and got on the road around 4 am and drove the nine hours to North Carolina. Arrived around 2 pm. It was so awkward being here. I've never felt more out of place in my own home before, quite possibly because I've never had another home before. Add on that the guilt of the financial burden I've been on the family. I went away to school as the first child of my family to go away to college, the first child to live away from home even, and I came home a failure.
I don't know enough words to express how much I miss the snow. Or jackie for that matter.
Christmas Was nice. I played way too many video games and did nothing. I got a camera which was really great. My parents have been awesome about how indesicive I've been. It seems like I want to do something different with my life every morning but they've managed to support everyting. Hopefully I can do something with this thing. Connor got another Master Replica lightsaber ( he has darth Maul and Obi Wan now). Those things are insanely awesome.
No picture for New Years. I spent it in my closet drinking beer and playing second life.
So for now I'm here in North Carolina. I miss my new friends from st rose very much. I miss my old friends from home even more. I want to say I miss home but I really don't know. Cornwall has always been my home. I've lived at St. Rose for much longer than I did in North Carolina and to me that sort of started feeling stable. It was homely. Now I'm stuck her. A new home to acquaint myself with. Who know's where I'll be next? I know I'll probably be joining dorm life again next fall but who knows how long that will last. Can't say life hasn't been interesting since High School. It most certainly has been the longest and busiest time of my life so far. You'd think the changing scenery would be exciting. Adventurous even. I wish I had something a little more stable. Things have been rough. I've lost a lot of money, a lot of weight, a lot of habits, and (seems like) a lot of friends.
But I still try and smile. Much love.
Anj