Everyone else was doing it

[drama_angel3189]

 So people have been posting these hatelist thingie

So i decide to start one
and then i kept writing
 and writing
 and so here

I hate not know
I hate that I will not admit the truth
I hate my need to be wanted
I hate that some people only think of me as the “Smart girl”
I hate how others only see me for my chest.
I hate how Kat is so far away
I hate my dependence on people
I hate how I don’t like my body
I hate how after so many tears and years I still don’t like it.
I hate how little things can upset me
I hate how I hide my tears to those around me
I hate that they don’t notice
I hate that I don’t always tell those who I am close how I feel.
I hate that I can think of so many things I hate about myself.
I hate that I will put other before me everytime
I hate how I will hurt myself in my efforts to please others
I hate that I can’t say no
I hate that embarrass people with my openness
I hate how I can’t decide
I hate how needy I am
I hate how I procrastinate
I hate how I write
I hate how I become obsessed
I hate how I am a perfectionist
I hate not having someone to cuddle with
I hate how much I hate myself
I hate how I put a mask on
I hate how no one notices my mask
I hate how many funerals I’ve been too
I hate how I don’t get along with my father
I hate how people make me feel guilty
I hate how people think I’m dumb
I hate how I always have bruises on my legs
I hate how people try and use me
I hate how teachers don’t give deadlines
I hate when I fail a test
I hate how I equate a ‘C’ with failing
I hate how I don’t study and still do well
I hate how people get mad when they find out that is how I am
I hate how I can’t understand my feelings
I hate how I can’t tell people how I feel
I hate how I send mixed messages
I hate how I didn’t feel like I had anything important to post
I hate how I feel inferior
I hate that everyone wants to work with me so that they don’t have to do as much
I hate how people judge me
I hate that I start projects and never finish them
I hate that people ignore me
I hate that I am so hard on myself
I hate that I fight so much with my siblings
I hate that I am so tall
I hate that guys like girls who are petite
I hate it when skinny people say they are fat
I hate that I struggle with my self esteem
I hate that that everyone always comes to me with their problems
I hate that no thinks I have problems
I hate that I am the big sister
I hate how I have to take control
I hate how I am always in charge
I hate how people expect me to be in charge
I hate how I eat when I am bored
I hate how I put up barriers
I hate how I lead people on
I hate how I have to take action
I hate how much I hate myself
I hate how impatient I am
I hate how I dance around the point
I hate how I don’t tell people when I am upset with them
I hate how I won’t admit that I am worth the effort
I hate how I butt into people conversations
I hate how I give up my pleasures for others
I hate how I let my work pile up
I hate how I keep trying to escape
I hate how I flirt with everyone
I hate how self-centered I am
I hate how possessive I am
I hate how hairy I am
I hate how I ramble
I hate how giggly I get
I hate how sheltered I am
I hate how I don’t always stand up for what I believe inI hate that is it a two page word document
It is way too long.

the end

goodnight,

~V~