BAD NIGHT..SO I'M GOING TO RANBLE.
I really can't believe how time flies. I looked back on all my entries from this journal and my last one. I started livejournal in 8th grade, that was four years ago. That makes me think about 8th grade, the best year of my life. Rob, Missy, Sydni, Nick, Steven, and me. And you know what I still talk to all of them. As they all went to Parkville for high school, I went to Overlea. I think of all of us in 8th grade, and boy, have we changed. Out of all of them I'm the closest with Rob, and I think a lot of that has to do because he was my boyfriend through one of the worst years. When I broke up with him I knew that I would always be best friends with that kid. Well, he went away for Marine School Sunday. He will be away for five months. This will be as good for me as it will be for him. I'm realizing a lot this summer about myself. How through the passed three years alone I've grown so much. I don't think age has anything about growing up, it's the life experinces that make you grow. Tonight is a sad night, so I'm just rambling.
Then I think back to my high school life. Overlea High School, my starting point. When I think of that school, I think OHS DRAMA GEEKS. God, what I would do to go back to those days. I was never happier. I had a home away from home and a whole other family. I also had Slot, who was always there for me, when I wasn't even there for myself. It was just amazing how a group of kids from totally different "groups" got together as one.
Then I go from Overlea to Catholic High. HUGE DIFFERENCE. I was leaving a family that I knew and loved and went to a new school, a totally new world for me. First few months were shakey, because instead of embracing the experience I was missing what I once had at Overlea. I mean my love for acting vanished. I was forced into Drama class, because it was all that fit into my schedule and I didn't know waht happened to me. I lost my faith, and love for acting. I guess I kind of felt like I was betraying my drama family at Overlea. Half way through the year I finally found a group of friends that were like me and my grades improved very much so. I had to work for my grades, and work hard. At the end of this year I felt so proud of myself, a feeling that I never felt at Overlea.
Now, it's my senior year and so much is in the air. What are you going to do with your life? Where are you going for College? How are you going to deal with leaving your friends? Oh dear, I'm getting sad just thinking about it. If you asked me in tenth grade if my life was going by too quickly, I would have said "No, it's not happening fast enough". I had so much crap happen to me through high school, it's crazy. My Uncle Buddy getting killed, Jarrett dying, My house burning down, Dealing with Chronic Mono and beign sick ALL THE TIME, Breaking up with the first and only boy I've ever loved, Transferring schools, Leaving Overlea, Saying Goodbye to Slot and the rest of my OHS family, Starting over at Catholic High, Realizing which friends I need in my life and which ones I didn't, all that on top of just living day by day. With all that said, I love my life and I wouldn't change it for the world. This life made me who I am today. I love who I am. I make mistakes like everyone does, but I pick up the slack for them. Life is too short and too crazy, but if you rush through it you'll be like me and sitting here and being like, "Where did life go"? So, sit back, relax, get some pop corn and enjoy your life. If I could go back, I would go back to 8th grade. Four years later and I still miss it like crazy. If we only had a rewind button...............
Then I think back to my high school life. Overlea High School, my starting point. When I think of that school, I think OHS DRAMA GEEKS. God, what I would do to go back to those days. I was never happier. I had a home away from home and a whole other family. I also had Slot, who was always there for me, when I wasn't even there for myself. It was just amazing how a group of kids from totally different "groups" got together as one.
Then I go from Overlea to Catholic High. HUGE DIFFERENCE. I was leaving a family that I knew and loved and went to a new school, a totally new world for me. First few months were shakey, because instead of embracing the experience I was missing what I once had at Overlea. I mean my love for acting vanished. I was forced into Drama class, because it was all that fit into my schedule and I didn't know waht happened to me. I lost my faith, and love for acting. I guess I kind of felt like I was betraying my drama family at Overlea. Half way through the year I finally found a group of friends that were like me and my grades improved very much so. I had to work for my grades, and work hard. At the end of this year I felt so proud of myself, a feeling that I never felt at Overlea.
Now, it's my senior year and so much is in the air. What are you going to do with your life? Where are you going for College? How are you going to deal with leaving your friends? Oh dear, I'm getting sad just thinking about it. If you asked me in tenth grade if my life was going by too quickly, I would have said "No, it's not happening fast enough". I had so much crap happen to me through high school, it's crazy. My Uncle Buddy getting killed, Jarrett dying, My house burning down, Dealing with Chronic Mono and beign sick ALL THE TIME, Breaking up with the first and only boy I've ever loved, Transferring schools, Leaving Overlea, Saying Goodbye to Slot and the rest of my OHS family, Starting over at Catholic High, Realizing which friends I need in my life and which ones I didn't, all that on top of just living day by day. With all that said, I love my life and I wouldn't change it for the world. This life made me who I am today. I love who I am. I make mistakes like everyone does, but I pick up the slack for them. Life is too short and too crazy, but if you rush through it you'll be like me and sitting here and being like, "Where did life go"? So, sit back, relax, get some pop corn and enjoy your life. If I could go back, I would go back to 8th grade. Four years later and I still miss it like crazy. If we only had a rewind button...............