Remorse and Nostalgia.. teh deadly mix!
so, after looking at today's episode of Star Trek Entreprise, I went on the old comp to take a good look at the messages before going to bed... but I got distracted from the original task (as always).
So, I went somewhere I didn't go since a long time, on the FFXI forums all the way over on Alla. Once there, I can't help it of going on the Linkshell thread (The HNM ones to be accurate) and just look at the screenshot section... must be a bit of Nostalgia.... or look for familiar names from back then, before september 2006. There are still few familiar names, but mostly new names. But then... it felt akward(is that the right spelling?), to look at something which was once pretty familiar but turning more and more into the unknowed(sp).
From time to time... I still get haunted toughts about FF. I truly wonder if my action of quitting this rapidly, while giving very little warning, and with a big fat juicy rant was right... at all. Many folks usually end up taking this game seriously and sometime.. I get this remorse... that I might i've let down quite a few of them down. Further more, there is also the "keep in touch" part... rather big failure actually XD.. this little LJ that get updated once in a blue moon is about the remnants of it
Crazy toughts before going to bed, huh? "Lacrimosa" does that to the brain...
Sleeping is kinda hard nowadays... with all the heat.. like.. 31 Celsius... crazyness.. good thing my mom bought few ventilators a while a ago <.
So, I went somewhere I didn't go since a long time, on the FFXI forums all the way over on Alla. Once there, I can't help it of going on the Linkshell thread (The HNM ones to be accurate) and just look at the screenshot section... must be a bit of Nostalgia.... or look for familiar names from back then, before september 2006. There are still few familiar names, but mostly new names. But then... it felt akward(is that the right spelling?), to look at something which was once pretty familiar but turning more and more into the unknowed(sp).
From time to time... I still get haunted toughts about FF. I truly wonder if my action of quitting this rapidly, while giving very little warning, and with a big fat juicy rant was right... at all. Many folks usually end up taking this game seriously and sometime.. I get this remorse... that I might i've let down quite a few of them down. Further more, there is also the "keep in touch" part... rather big failure actually XD.. this little LJ that get updated once in a blue moon is about the remnants of it
Crazy toughts before going to bed, huh? "Lacrimosa" does that to the brain...
Sleeping is kinda hard nowadays... with all the heat.. like.. 31 Celsius... crazyness.. good thing my mom bought few ventilators a while a ago <.