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As the week progresses, I'm going from optimistic to suspicious. The house is up for short-sale and foreclosure both, but it's looking like the short-sale will get to be a thing. Except I'm being asked for more and more paperwork at the behest of credit auditors. The same credit auditors who have sent me three denial letters regarding options to
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As I said, I'm in no rush. I'd rather find the right person than just have a body at my side. I never wanted to be married more than once, because after the friends and family I've been around I was hoping I'd learned enough through remaining attentive and emotionally connected that I'd have found someone that would last the distance the first time around.
Still, I'm trying to keep my eyes open and be proactive where I can be. You know, make sure I'm in the right type of environments with the right kind of people to find someone that meets my criteria. I've been the passive guy most of my life. I feel more comfortable around women as a general rule, and I've spent a lot of time with them developing friendships and being a counselor and confidant because I like helping people find a better life for themselves. As a side effect, most of the girls I've dated have been ones who grew feelings for me because of the evolution of the friendship. In some cases it was obviously a bad idea and a form of codependency that they developed on someone who put a lot of time into trying to make their world better, but in some cases it was just two friends seeing if there was more. Looking back on it, however, I wonder if the reason it took me forever to find serious relationships was that I was being very picky or just that I wasn't putting myself out there. Should I have actively been asking people out, testing the waters for someone that eventually clicked? Was I naive in thinking that starting with friendship as a foundation was the right idea, and that the level of familiarity that comes with a base friendship ruins any possibility for spontaneity and passion?
While I'm a hopeless romantic 98% of the time, I also find the thought that there's only one person out there for anyone ridiculous. There may be ideal matches, but the likelihood is that at certain points in your life there will be a number of them rather than a special snowflake in a blizzard. You just have to be open to finding the people in your sphere of influence that like your quirks, and whose quirks you find endearing. As such I know I'll find someone who will love me for the odd bird I can be at times. I've just, frankly, never dated prior to the last year or so because all of my girlfriends have been friends first, and I'm trying to get a feel for how to do this right in our modern day and age.
... truth be told, though, I'd still rather fall in love with a close friend. Looks fade, passion comes and goes, so you have to share this life with someone you want to be around even in the tepid times. At least, I'd like to think so.
Bah. I'm overanalyzing. Or blabbing. Take your pick. TL:DR... you've been a wonderful, beautiful, intelligent woman for as long as I've been fortunate to know you and anyone you track down and mount above the hearth is an extremely lucky bastard; also, I'm going to keep myself out there without trying to put a timer on it so that maybe I'll find that someone thinks I'm worth the hunt.
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Now I segue to an off topic question I suddenly remembered I wanted to ask you: Have you heard of the MMO "The Secret World"?
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And to follow the segue, I have heard of it. I played it for a time on their RP server, but as much as I like the game I quit following it so closely once it became apparent that most of the roleplay community was on UK time and therefore only really active while I'm at work or sleeping. I still have it, though, and likely still have my characters. I made one of each faction, but it's been a while so I can't recall names or power pools. Just that one was a reluctant hero and one was a bastard son of Thor.
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I never really had the opportunity to get into the MUSH/MUD world like some of my friends did. I was briefly in one that was utilizing the Buffy RPG rules set for roleplay, but I had issues being online at the same time as other players and as such tended to respond rather slowly. Part of this is that I've been lucky to have an actual physical gaming group most of my life thus far, so a lot of my attention went to that or the friends I had in whatever the MMORPG-du-jour was at the moment (usually WoW or City of Heroes in my case).
I will say I'm open to trying new things and meeting new people or spending more time with the ones I already find endearing, though I'm going to be giving some serious effort to making my fantasy world that's been under development for 25 years a playable thing. If I can coax out my damn muse. She's finicky and seems to only want to work once every three to five years.
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