Apr 05, 2005 23:14
The only thing I have on my mind in the present moment is the feel of her soft lips on mine. It was so unexpected yet the perfect timing. I never thought it would have felt so good. But I find myself in a very confusing position it didn’t mean anything it was spontaneous. She saw me as family thou we are not at all. So why tempt me like so. Confuse me tempt me into something that isn’t going to happen at all. All the dreams shattered. Don’t play I don’t see the point in the confusion. I know im not up for it. Why hold me so close yet im there as if used to let go some steam. Most guys would see it as fresh meat. I see it as a new beginning yet u know this and unfortunately without thinking u throw it back. Well I don’t play shit like that fuck all that shit. Ill leave u begging for me to see u again for not taking to consideration how I felt about u. that I care for u protect u in anyway I can. But it seems ud prefer someone to use u that u know u can’t trust over someone close to you that can always be trusted. That can be used as well I guess. So u won’t get it. At least not from me. I won’t hear more of ur complaints about ur life im willing to be there but if u would. Life sucks whats good is never good enough. Ull never find anything good then. Just some trash that’ll use u I wont here ur cries I wont look back ill see u when u accept who I am .